well shuzzle it

gremlins have struck, darned chapter corrupted due to a power malfunction. SSD's definitely don't like keeping backups.

That means I will have to rewrite todays chapter of reaffirmation and post it late.

Hopefully by tomorrow or saturday I am going to try and recover the corrupted copy first

wish me luck

Wow things really are turning around for me, my body is still a little fubar but have managed to get a nitendo ring fit. started a weight loss and now an exercise program within my physical limitations i got on the scales today and after a week i have lost 10 pounds.

I still have a long way to go to where i should be and stress my body less but by the G_dess i will continue to work on it.

Now i have todays workout behind me time for a coffee and settle into todays wrinting ready for publishing.

What a week,

Will be posting chap 5 of angel Monday next week to give me time to tweak it a little bit. i hate it when i have to chase meds and stuff really screws up my routine. I'm getting used to writing again after such a long hiatus and for those that ask i will be working on reaffirmation and another of my incomplete stories. i really have left too many unfinished.

I'm going to try to keep up regular posting too giving myself deadlines will help me function, so from next week it will be angel on a Monday and reaffirmation on a Thursday,

well its nearly a year since i used my blog and one of my new years resolutions is to keep it going this time round lol.

to those that know me knopws who i am and what i write.

well i am keeping my fingers crossed that my transition is being completed this year and we will have to see.

to those watching my stories Heaven can wait part four is in the works and the mystery of the hall will continue also and a late christmas story is flowing out of the keyboard.

to my extended family i am back twice as strong and twice the little

the season of joy they call this, not much joy to be found for me this year.To use another over used phrase physician heal thy self, sometimes my gods you cant over the last two weeks i have managed the grand total 4 hours sleep in 14 days and have tried all i can to sleep but the images and nightmares are always there. A raised fist, a loud voice, the scorn, the words all eating away at me from the inside out. I prided myself on having a tough outer skin being there for others helping them through.

finally after weeks and week of not finding a simple sentence i the mue and a feeling of helplessness. New words new stories and new parts of present stories pouring from me like water from a sponge.

YEEEESSSS!!!!!!!

Here I am again being ravaged and churning words out but it is so good to be back writing even at the volume I am doing now. I am starting a kids camp story and will be posted in a few days once the story matures. Without a trace is growing by the day and the story is taking some twists.

well i'm back after a hiatus from everything and getting back into writting and everything else.

there has been a lot of turmoil in this life in the predeing months and alot of trying to cope with mental illness. No i dont count being trans gendered as a mental illness but a state of being.

well about time i started blogging somewhere i suppose (giggle), i am just taking a break from fighting with heaven can wait as its turning out to be a hard story to write. Not because I am trying to please people but like most of my stories it contains pieces from my past and how some things I wish I could of changed or avoided.

I suppose I write to examine myself and how I interact with others so it does make it harder to write fiction as always trying to dig away the harsh parts so it doesn't offend people and make it too dark too read.