The past is always ready to bite us, um there.
So, twice in the last week, I got mad enough to give someone a through beat down. The up side of it is that I didn't. It would have been easier to take if I had just cried. So, feeling really ashamed of myself, not that the two miscreants did not deserve what I wanted to do to them, I had a good think. I haven't had Estrogen in a week ... I wonder if that caused it? It probably didn't so I suppose I have to assume full responsibility for my un-lady like conduct. Where is Grama to spank me?
Today, I was driving through downtown Portland at about 20 miles an hour with the light, and some guy stepped off the curb in the cross walk and started across the street. In Portland, any pedestrian, in the crosswalk, at any time, has the right away. He just took me by surprise is all. So I sat there in the intersection waiting for him. As he passed in front of me, he gave me the finger ! I was out of my car so fast, and chased him down, and said, wait a minute, I let you go by, so why did you give me the finger? I had actually not remembered that he had the right of way, but that did not bother me until he gave me the finger, he gave me the finger !!!!
So, after I had my say, I promptly gave him the finger and flounced off to my car ! So there!
The only problem was I could not move the car! I had been so full of ire that I put the brake on so hard that I could not get it OFF !!! OH HUMILIATION of humiliations ! I was afraid I was going to be forced to ask the guy I just gave the finger to help me with the brake!
Do you think that God was teaching me to behave? If so, lesson learned, I promise not to ever get mad again!
I still can't figure out how it all happened, because I have not lost my temper in at least 5 years.
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I'm sure
that if god existed he'd be too busy to worry about you running some bloke over on a crossing because he gave you the finger.
Angharad
No estrogen?
Welcome to Menopause...
Coincidence
If god were micromanaging everybody's lives to this level, then why hasn't he stepped in on cases of rape, sexual assault, child abuse, the situation in the Middle East, the Ukraine, Africa, the children from South America, and so on. If we are expected to clean up our own messes, then I'd say you got a good start!
Just stay on this side of the law, it seems that law enforcement and the court system, as bone-headed as they seem most of the time, have a faster and more tangible response.
Pick your battles wisely.
I went outside once. The graphics weren' that great.
So G-d Knew You Were Going to Give a NY Salute?
Assumptions:
G-d knew you would give your friend the bird so G-d made you lock the brakes before you left the car. Therefor you are blameless because you had no freewill.
G-d can be surprised. It has happened before. It will happen again. Example: Cain, "Am I my brother's keeper?" (Genesis 4:9)
We are human. Therefor we make mistakes.
Although it boils down to: "What does Hashem require of you but to do justice, to love kindness and walk humbly with your G-d," (Micah 6:8) we are not perfect.
Shelly
G-d knew?
God knows I will sin, but did not have pre-knowlege of this particular bit of idiocy.
What surprised me was my reaction to my "assailant". I returned evil for evil, and that is forbidden. That I have felt volatile for a week or so is inexplicable to me. It has been literally years since I blew up like that and twice in a week. It gives me pause to stop and reflect; looking inside to see what is off.
In my case, could the lack of estrogen, as minute as my dose is, have been a causative factor? I need to assume full responsibility for this event and do what I can to see to it that it does not happen again for it is a side to me that is repulsive and vile to me.
I am not very good at recognizing when I am under emotional stress. I found out yesterday that some agencies thought I was still married. It took me all afternoon to resolve that bit of lunacy. It was abnormally hot. The man's actions were a surprise.
The Mormons have proven to be a project deeply mired in tedium.
My happy place is in here somewhere, now to find it. :)