I've been thinking about what the counselor said to me about having some kind of mourning ritual for the things of my past. Obviously, I couldnt do all of them in one go, so the first thing I would need to do is try and separate them out so I can tackle them one at at time. With that in mind, I've created a little grief list, and here it is, in chronological order:
1: my father's death. How do I say goodbye to someone I knew more by their absence than their presence ?
2: The rapes: I lost something precious in the process, but what kind of funeral can you hold for the death of innocence ?
3: Dorothy's childhood: I never got to be a little girl, or a teen girl, or a young adult girl. I miss those moments, but how to I mourn what I didnt have?
Well, those are the three biggies, I think. Now, the hard part - what to do about them?
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One of my favorite...
One of my favorite authors wrote about a world where the common practice when grieving was to burn certian things in a little tiny brazer ( its a cup made of brass )
Take one item that means the present. One that means the past. and a lock of your hair. Burn in brazer with suitable fire materials ie some wood to burn it completely.
At the end maybe you will find some peace. maybe not but I dunno about anyone else but watching a fire burn to nothing always does something for me.
I would practice a speech of sometime to say while the items burn.
mmmz isn't fiction, it part
mmmz isn't fiction, it part of a religion although I'm not remembering which one at the moment ...