...but I intend to find out who is responsible for this!
After reading Teddi's sad blog, it made me think for a while about who I am. Am I finding out, or am I profoundly dishonest with myself?
I have lots of names. Khadija,Gwendolyn, Ellen, Credence, Brown, Boucher,Dad, Sister, slave, and a couple others that are secrets. So, if I am so handy with different names, does it mean that I am like a chameleon, changing into different people for different audiences? ^.^
I am feeling very strong, loving, supportive and giggly today. It is who I want to be. It is "simply not allowed", and "not permissible" to be any other way! So, when I fall off the wagon, you all have permission to "KICK MY ASS" ! :)
G
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Sounds like multiple personality syndrome
perm any three from eight! At least you'll never be alone Gwen.
Angharad 8)
Angharad
Whom you Are!
Gwen: You are a girl and don't let anyone tell you differently. I sorry I'm kind of mad with Teddi for saying what she said and I wish she would communicate with me over it. Now Gwen you are a girl and what little I have heard and what you have writen here and another site I've seen your work at you are total girl in the way you think, I will admit I'm not I'm not sure on your pick of religion but please don't get mad at me as I think they are very anti-free girl and want to control there women too much. You seem to have very free soul to the way you write and I hope you live with that free soul too. A friend! Richard
Richard
Thank you so much
Richard:
Thank you so much for the kind words. Yes, I am Muslim, albeit a very moderate one; no bombs from me, giggle. Actually, I have stumbled upon a very nice Muslim Imam, that says that women have even more rights than American women have. He blames our repression on tribal ideas and the various cultures. I'd agree with him but Afghanistan is one place where I would remove all the women and children and Nuke what is left. Those Pashtun bastards! I know, sigh, take a breath Gwen.
So, the main thing in Islam for me is that there is but one God. And, Muslims do too believe in Jesus (Isa PBUH) but they disagree that he was killed.
Well, one of my current fascinations is history; just now reading about Josephus, and I can say that very little in any religion would stand up in a court of law.
I am beginning to understand my own writing better; understanding myself and my own motivations. If you can see the protagonists as very insecure people so desperate as to be willing to give almost anything up for love, then you can understand the protagonist and the author much more.
In my youth, I was forced upon pain of death to absolutely submit to my stepfather. Being a rather mild person by nature, it became a part of my own psyche. In 39 years of married life, I adopted the same role because I was trained to it. It is not really hard to understand from that point of view.
One of the best experiences I have had in the last 4 years since I came out was sleeping on the chest of my very large, strong, and hairy boy friend.
See how I have simply jabbered on. I am sorry.
Gwen