sorry to post so soon, but something came up:
If I told you I was laying on the couch at 3:30 AM shaking and crying (but no tears, my tear ducts dont seem to work anymore) what would you think the cause was?
1: grief over my mother's deteriorating mental and physical health
2: my bi-polar cycle hitting a down patch
3: my PTSD sending me flashbacks
or 4: a massive dysphoria attack.
well, I won't keep you in suspense, it was #4.
I was struggling with a feeling of intense hatred of my male member, to the point if I could have done so painlessly I would have ripped it out of my body.
Needless to say, I'm not doing well now, so send hugs if you got some to spare, okay?
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Sending you a big hug!
I remember when my grandmother had Alzheimer’s. I know it’s a very difficult condition to deal with.
I’ll be thinking of you often, so when you get down know that someone cares about you.
BIG HUG !
Gillian Cairns
Lots of Hugs Comming...
Sending Lots of Hugs your way...
More in the days to come.
Loving Hugs tmf
Please Never Feel As If You're Posting Too Much
A noted doctor explained this morning that exercising compassion is an essential means of preventing mental deterioration.
You inspire thoughts of compassion.
Your mother is very lucky to have you.
Jill
Angela Rasch (Jill M I)
Please keep posting
I'm sure I'm not the only one who'd worry if you weren't posting.
It's awful the way this world makes some people suffer. If virtual hugs can help, I'm sending some your way. Please hang on and DON'T STOP POSTING!
- io
1 C-130 loaded w/ huggles
Coming your way, Dorothy; will parachute down near your place and swarm you. Love you sis!
There are times we all need help.
Don't ever think you're posting too much. You have many friends here, and I think it's safe to say we all want to help in any way we can. Sometimes that might be talking through things, and others that will be sending mucho huggles to you.
I am always praying for you, Dot.
You are loved very much.
Hugs!
Rosemary
thanks, Rose
hugs back
I've still got plenty ...
... of hugs 'floating out in the ether' or where-ever.
Please pluck out as many as you need.
Take care!
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More hugs on the way. My local classical radio station plays a lot of Bach, and more. They're one of the places I get my 'hug refills'. (WFMT.com, free one-click (maybe three) listening on their web site. No login, sign up or any such.)