A couple weeks ago, I went to the VA to get a Doctor to look at a spot on my back that never heals, so I wanted to see if it was Cancer. Spent about a half hour with the doctor and left, and then in about a few days I get a call from another Doctor that said that she was told that I wanted to start living as a man again. What ?!? The!

I will say that mtf transition was a term in hell for me and most of us. I never recommend that someone do it and if they ask me I say no. The reason being that a decision like that must be ONLY your decision and no one else gets a role in it. For me, the loss of my family made it all not worth it, and if they approached me in a loving way, I would probably go back to being grandpa. Not holding my breath for that though.

Other than that, I am very happy as a woman because I probably am one. And I have found myself with a bunch of people that love me and though I can not understand why, I am going to enjoy this horse while it still lives. After 12 years of this and knocking myself out to try to BE a woman, it is clear that I am not like a genetic woman. I have never pushed a baby out, had my period start in the middle of English class, been driven crazy by a guy in the back seat of his car, had dad drag me back into the house before I went to school to change clothes, sent naked pictures to a boy on my phone, or been wolf whistled at.

I did spend 7 years living as a Muslim woman, been asked to be second wife, yelled at for my driving by a Saudi Guy, been told by numerous men that I am not smart enough to do so many things that I did regularly in my old life. I know what it is like to be approached by a man that gave me the creeps, and learned that smart girls just don't go some places without a girlfriend or a man with you. I've learned that if I dress in a mini and a brief top, I will get action I may not want.

Return to impersonating a man? Seriously? What the hell???