Went for an appointment today, with no attendant. I'll be doing this more and more in the future, Still haven't figured out how to dress myself, that comes later. Lately I've been very depressed, to the point of thinking the unthinkable. The reasons I didn't do it a long while back still hold true, I am very aware how much it hurts the people we leave behind. I currently weigh 147 pounds, a pound more more than last month.I am not adverse to losing weight, but only in a healthy manner, I was approaching the realm of an eating disorder, food just wasn't that interesting to me, it still isn't but now I'm fighting it, My urge to self harm doesn't extent that far. Before when I got depressed I would binge eat, this is something new for me. If you have high blood pressure treat it and stay on top of it. Strokes suck, especially in the USA, where health resources are minimal for poor people. The reason I go on about my weight is I have spent most of my life in the high side of 200 pounds, I never thought I could go below 155, I am happy to see I was wrong.

I could still use some friendly voices to talk too, This definitely helps fight depression.