I've been giving a lot of careful thought to one of my major issues. It's my sexuality. I consider myself to be very conflictidly bisexual. I have a strong desire to be with a woman. I also have strong desires to be with a man. However, I am not really attracted to men much at all. While at the same time I am very attracted to women. Therein lies the bulk of my issue. Every time I see a woman I'm attracted to I feel my desire to be with a man. Every time I think about dating a man my desire to be with women comes back. This is hurting me a lot and making it impossible to even think about dating.

I have come to realize that since I'm not really attracted to men that I will have to push back my desires and concentrate on women. I will also be open to dating other transgender people. If I do finally end up with someone and my urges for men come back; Well, that's why we have sex toys.

Here's hoping.

Jessica Marie