First off, I'd like to say thank you to all those who have commented, sent me private messages or otherwise been supportive with what I've been going through. I consider myself very fortunate to have fans, friends, and family like those I have here.
Late last night, or rather very early this morning, I decided to stop feeling sorry for myself and came to a decision. I am done with just lying down while life keeps kicking me. I am going to stop hoping that things happen and start making them happen. Until something more permanent can be arranged Martin has decided to be my literary agent. he's actually been looking into publishing companies for a while and already has several chosen to submit my work to, I just need finished products.
So until the end of the month I will be trying to write 2000 words per day on Twice Removed which should be enough to finish it. This amount won't be overwhelming and will allow me to keep working on other things as well and hopefully stick to my schedule. When it's finished I'll start putting it through the editing process and then we'll submit it to the publishing companies. If I have to I'll self publish, but I want to give this a chance first ,and if I do self publish on Amazon I'll need someone to design covers for both Twice Removed and Raven's Blood and to help me with the ins and outs of self publishing.
Also I'm going to start working on getting my confidence back. We have a little extra money now that Martin has an extra dance class so I'll be able to get my medical straitened out and see a doctor a fellow T-woman here in Montreal referred me to. I'll stop hiding in frumpy clothes and avoiding notice too. Screw what others think I'm done hiding myself.That means tomorrow I'm dying my hair purple and I'm going to start wearing all my Goth clothes and such again.
I will attempt to resume my regular schedule next week and since I'm four chapters ahead on Raven's Blood I'll be posting it on Saturday as usual. Thanks again to all of you and *big huge hugs*
Amethyst
Comments
Good for you!
You can never go wrong with standing up for your own happiness, OR being goth.
Well, unless you're, I dunno, a banker or a preacher or something. That would be a little odd.
Melanie E.
I guess that would depend
on what religion you're preaching. lol
*big hugs*
Amethyst
Don't take me too seriously. I'm just kitten around. :3
Kudos
I hope that you are successful in whatever you wish to do in life. Nothing bugs those that want you to fail than being a SUCCESS!
GO for it!
Exactly
And when I do succeed, I'll be in a more secure position to do something about all of this.
Don't take me too seriously. I'm just kitten around. :3
Good For you Amethyst. As a
Good For you Amethyst. As a man who strictly dates Transgender women, I am very luck that my kids have no issue with me or whomever I date. I also have a manipulative ex that tried to poison my kids thoughts when they were little but it backfired on her immensely..
I want us to still be friends
I want us to still be friends. That's what she told me when she first brought up separating. Funny how that never works. I will not let her rule my life though and I will work my butt off to become a success if only to spite her and let my kids know I've never stopped trying to get into a position where we can be together again, despite what it might seem like to them.
Don't take me too seriously. I'm just kitten around. :3
Yay!
You had me worried there, hon.
You go, girl!
~And so it goes...
So happy to hear you are
So happy to hear you are moving forward from a place of strength and resolve. Go get it all, Girl!
OMG OMG OMG!!
I was checking email again and got an unexpected message sent an hour ago from my middle child Sakura. Technically she's my oldest since the who the first message was from wasn't even mine biologically though I was there since she was an infant. Suki though, she's my baby. We've had a connection since I first held her and I was the one who stayed at home and raised her since while my ex attended school. I even helped her buy her first training bra.
The message was a simple 'Hi Amy' with a heart. Probably short out of necessity but it told me all I need to know. My baby still loves me and she doesn't want me out of her life. She turns fourteen in February and I'm going to work hard to see if I can't get in a better financial situation by then so I can bring her to live with me if that's what she wants. I will not give up on her or my son if he still wants me too.
*big loving hugs to all*
Amethyst
Don't take me too seriously. I'm just kitten around. :3
making a decision
Good for you! You go, girl.
General PS to whom it may concern: A friend of mine go her surgury in the Dominican Republic for a fraction of what doctors elsewhere wanted. She has been delighted with the results.