It's been a long time coming, but I've decided to end the relationship with my FtM boyfriend Felix. It started out well, but it is going nowhere and I figure why waste the next couple of years being polite. He will always say what I want to hear and do whatever the hell he pleases anyway. I am constantly frustrated in my own house and I don't want to live that way. I am tired of being annoyed, tired of living in filth, and tired in general. I think this is for the best. I am also thinking of putting my house for sale and moving from the state. Maybe I can head back to Tennessee and get my job back at Dell. In an ideal world, I would drop off the face of the planet for the year, write, and work on myself. But bills gots to be paid. Ho hum. Sucky day.