This whole year has been a roller-coaster of feels and thrills.
I saw my psychologist today. I have to definitely count her as a blessing in my life with how observant and quick she is to pick up on things. I was going to ask her today about ADD/ADHD, since several people here on BC and elsewhere in my life have suggested I might have it. We talked of other things and when I was about to ask she actually asked me if I had ever been diagnosed with it. We talked about it and she asked me to switch psychiatrists to get help with it and my other issues.
Outside of this, I haven't been able to write much of anything since chapter two of Spark and my submission for TG Mixed Tape around two weeks ago. I have lots of stuff in final edit, but I can't seem to focus long enough to write more than a few words. This isn't writers block which I've had before. I know what I want to write. I have all of it outlined if it's not past the rough draft. I just can't last more than a few minutes before my attention is grabbed elsewhere or I zone out. I've even a few times fallen asleep while trying to write. It's not just writing, but other things. What I know I can do in minutes, is taking me hours to do, or even days.
I think it's my lack of quality sleep. I'm fairly certain that my weight problems, my constant non-associated anxiety, and my lack of focus are all magnified by lack of quality sleep.
I have an appointment with my neurologist/sleep-doc tomorrow, my psychiatrist Thursday and my PCP next week. Hopefully I can find a solution for my problems.
I'm trying to stay positive, and at least somewhat coherent. I'd like to think that good news is on the way.
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I hope the good news is on the way for you too
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Thank you.
My sleep doctor is going to have me switch over to a dental appliance to keep my mouth open and positioned in a way to allow for better breathing. On the other hand she said that fixing my deviated septum wouldn't matter, even though I only breath through my one good nostril and wake up when I sleep in a way I block it off which is often.
It will be a while before I can get it and I hope it works. I really don't like using a cpap at all because it seems ineffective.
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I'm not presuming to diagnose here.
I've gone through more than a few episodes that were just like you described. Sounds like depression from what I've gone through so you might want to ask your doctors about that, or to change meds if you're already taking something for it. Just take care of yourself first, the stories will wait until you're better.
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I don't think it's
I don't think it's depression. I've been depressed many times before and it didn't have that sense of hopelessness or despair I get when I'm depressed.
I think it's just anxiety. It has the feeling of constant danger combined with knowing that it's not associated with anything I can tie it to, there's the WTF factor.
Today the anxiety is better. Still there, but much more bearable.
My psychologist recommended me to change psychiatrists as she knows my current one and the one she recommended. She says I'll get better help with my anxiety. So I've got that going for me.
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Hyper Active
I have been Hyper Active all my life stated walking at 9 months mom would keep a harness with a rope to keep me from running into the woods . I am now 65 and have not slowed down at all so I don't know about ADD or ADHD but I learned to live with it . I tell people when it comes my time the grimm reaper is going to have to catch me first .
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I wish I had energy like how
I wish I had energy like how you sound. I could get so much done. I just put together two shelf units and decorated my bedroom a little bit more and I'm exhausted and kind of want to sleep. I still need to make food for the next few days and run to the store and I don't think I'm going to succeed. Maybe the food part if I don't fall asleep.
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