I'll float on

This whole year has been a roller-coaster of feels and thrills.

I saw my psychologist today. I have to definitely count her as a blessing in my life with how observant and quick she is to pick up on things. I was going to ask her today about ADD/ADHD, since several people here on BC and elsewhere in my life have suggested I might have it. We talked of other things and when I was about to ask she actually asked me if I had ever been diagnosed with it. We talked about it and she asked me to switch psychiatrists to get help with it and my other issues.

Outside of this, I haven't been able to write much of anything since chapter two of Spark and my submission for TG Mixed Tape around two weeks ago. I have lots of stuff in final edit, but I can't seem to focus long enough to write more than a few words. This isn't writers block which I've had before. I know what I want to write. I have all of it outlined if it's not past the rough draft. I just can't last more than a few minutes before my attention is grabbed elsewhere or I zone out. I've even a few times fallen asleep while trying to write. It's not just writing, but other things. What I know I can do in minutes, is taking me hours to do, or even days.

I think it's my lack of quality sleep. I'm fairly certain that my weight problems, my constant non-associated anxiety, and my lack of focus are all magnified by lack of quality sleep.

I have an appointment with my neurologist/sleep-doc tomorrow, my psychiatrist Thursday and my PCP next week. Hopefully I can find a solution for my problems.

I'm trying to stay positive, and at least somewhat coherent. I'd like to think that good news is on the way.