Ok, so yesterday I passed another year. I am now the age that Douglas Adams postulated as the answer to that very big question in the title of this here blog. This is significant because it has brought about an epiphany, usually folks wait for new years to make resolutions but as this is the first day of my new age it will be the first day of my new life.

I have resolved to be more positive in my thinking and living. I will exercise more by walking and riding my bike. I will take better care of my health by managing my diabetes better, and trying to lose fifty more pounds. I will eat better and less than what I used too. All of these things I would need to do anyway if I ever was able to transition. I now have two friends that know about me both are accepting and also know each other and both have pledged to keep my secrets. I will silently work towards my goals and try to live a better more ordered life. I am making plans to see a headshrinker for depression but am looking for one that handles gender issues as well.

It's also fitting that my day of birth fell on TDoR I will admit to at many times almost becoming a statistic I do not want that now I want to find out what life has in store for me I want to complete my journey and cross the finish line no matter what the end. So many of our brothers and sisters did not get that chance so I will honor them with my prayers and hope they will guide me on my mission of self discovery. This is my new year and the start of a new life for me. Rest assured I will not be jumping off the cliff and announcing to world who I am just yet, but I will be making forward progress and not standing still.

I would like to thank all of you here at BCTS who have become my friends and my family because of you I have finally realised I have a place in the world and am allowed to live my life as I need to be. Smiles, Jenn.