I don't have much to say, I've been in dark places myself, not for the same reasons. Short and to the point this one was, it was good thank you for sharing it.

out of a no win situation.

What we need is curriculum in our schools that teach students about why we are the way we are. Doctors, nurses, therapists; even psychiatrists and psychologists are trained in college about transgender persons. All of my doctors tell me it is required. But we need this curriculum at the grade school and high school levels. Like in grade school start with 5th graders. At 10 years old, children are pretty intelligent these days. I mean, you have 9 year olds having sex and using drugs. So 10 year olds are old enough to start learning about transsexualism.

When this curriculum is in the schools, then maybe we can stop the ignorance, most of the hate, 90% of the bigotry and maybe 100% of the homophobia. But this curriculum doesn't work if some of us are still in the closet.

This little ditty hits home for many of us. My therapist asked me if I ever thought about, or tried, committing suicide. I told her I would a liar if I said no. Then I told her, too, that there isn't one transsexual person who hasn't thought, or doesn't think, of committing suicide. She asked me why haven't I done it, and I told her because when I have these feelings of despondency, I write them in a poem or a short story.

Thank you for sharing Rues. This little ditty makes the reader think, and that is a good thing.

If any of you are feeling despondent, please talk to somebody, or write it down in a journal, or a poem, or a story. These are ways to stop the thinking, and put your mind to constructive use.

To feeling this way lots of times, but it was before I transitioned. It seemed completely reasonable. Fate or Karma, I was punished or it was luck. Which ever, I was made wrong. It seemed like I could start over again and maybe get it right. So I thought, but I was unhappy, not suicidal. I thought I couldn't transition, but it was probably that I couldn't accept that I needed to transition.

I know being TS and unsupported in that need, is very stressful to say the least. Looking back, however, I think having chronic depression and subsequent doubt about my self worth/esteem has been a bigger burden in my life. Of course the two problems are related, by abuse when young and possible innate/genetic mental or personality set that is more susceptible to depression.