Dorothy mentioned someone with any names. Well that person is me.

I went to doctor yesterday for the results of some tests I have been getting lately. Had hot flashes, breast pain etc. I expected that I was going into menopause or something.

Well I am barren. I will never be able to have children. While I kinda expected that it still hit me really really hard.

The drive home from doctor's in my car I was approaching a city bus. I was detached already but for some reason I had to think hard to press the brake instead of the gas pedal. I had to call my bf over when I got home as I was crying buckets and was not all that able to speak.

From what I understand according to the doctor I was never able to have children. So unless some new medical breakthrough occurs and they can grow me a new*working* uterus, tubes etc. ... well you get idea.

At this time I am still not all that with it but I will survive.