I find myself in a VERY bad mood. So much so that I am actively angry but have no cause for it or direction. I am trying hard to not lash out at anything and I am on the edge of screaming should someone provoke me.
I hate these moods as they come on for no reason except that it is also carrying a definate element of fear.
Since I automatically disassociate and reassociate things the cause could have started very early in the day and only hit me now.
I am contiplating putting on some leather gloves and actually breaking things. Old tvs, some walls in house, fence outside.
Note I am also trying to get into the mood to edit Reluctantly Marcie part 4 down to one perspective, currently it is a mix of perspectives and is totally confusing.
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I find.
Playing a good fighter game is a great way to relieve the stress that induces these kinds of moods in me. Or a fighter/rpg, like the Tales Of series. Of late I find that generally, even with a great deal of stress I'm not getting the rages I used to anymore anyways... Yesterday, though, I'd been off my T-blockers for the weekend because I'd ran out, and jeesh, but I was raging something fierce for practically no reason at all. I mean, I literally threw a wheel barrow at a dumpster because some lazy arse drove up to a full dumpster and tossed bags of trash in front of it after I'd already been over there and finished dragging all it's excess mountainous heaps over to another dumpster on property that had room in it. Yeah, so they SHOULDN'T have done that, but, they all do, and it's not really a big deal, why the frack did I get in a rage over it?
Testosterone is an evil evil hormone.
Abigail Drew.
Stress
Hi tels,
For what it is worth, my recommendation is to get some exercise. Yes. even if it is punching something, that won't hurt you or cost you money or even jail-time. Running would be GREAT or walking briskly. ANY form of aerobic exercise will do WONDERS for your disposition.
I only wish I listened to my own good advice more often.
with love,
HER
Once in a while I bare my soul, more often my soles bear me.
Actually...
Running or walking exercises are BAD for me and many other people when they are having a bad day. It gives us too much time to think and we end up just letting things smolder.
It's much better for us to let all our frustrations out quickly and explosively. The trick is finding a way to do so without being destructive to anything, or anyone, especially yourself.
I suppose some people can work things out with a walk, run, or jog, but for many many people, violent video games or martial arts exercises are the better outlets.
Abigail Drew.
If your body is capable of RUNNING
Hey Abbie,
I DEFY you to RUN for 15 minutes and even REMEMBER what you were upset about. If you REALLY put out energy your mind loses itself in the rhythm. I included walking earlier because some people are incapable of running, BUT I also included punching something, I recommend a "heavy bag" and at LEAST 15 minutes of 'whaling the daylights' out of it.
If you are having everything rehash itself in your head. you aren't "putting out".
with love,
HER
Once in a while I bare my soul, more often my soles bear me.
Honestly...
I can run and run and run, or power walk fast enough I may as well be running, and keep that up, and no matter how long or hard I do either, I always still have plenty of "energy" to fuel my brain. If anything, as the exercise gets my metabolic rate up, my mind gets even more juice. As long as my brain has juice, I can hold many many "different" tracks at once, and trust me, one of those will be dedicated to steaming over how upset I am.
OTOH, if I just get really explosive on something for a few moments, the anger all gets let out at once and I'm okay for a while.
The only other ways were to completely immerse my mind with too many stimulus to keep running a track dedicated to steaming over being upset - reading a good book or REALLY listening to some good music (I mean, REALLY REALLY immersing yourself mind and soul in the music) were pretty much the only things ever able to completely swamp out the negative feelings. And that always took a lot longer than just letting myself explode, and wasn't nearly as satisfying.
Abigail Drew.
I used to take an axe and cut
I used to take an axe and cut a tree or two out of a fenceline.
I'll get a life when it's proven and substantiated to be better than what I'm currently experiencing.
hugs, sweetie
you can call me and yell at me if you need to
Oh, I know! I could have
Oh, I know! I could have you get on IRC, and do what I did to Abigail Drew. I made her laugh so hard she had to log out so she could finish what she was trying to work on.
I'll get a life when it's proven and substantiated to be better than what I'm currently experiencing.
Bad mood
Why not a punching bag? Tou can go to the gym and get in a work out.
May Your Light Forever Shine
That sounds like good advice, Stan
I wonder why no-one thought to give that advice earlier?
with love,
HER
Once in a while I bare my soul, more often my soles bear me.
Wack a mole
Go to an arcade, a chucky cheese or something similar. Find the game Wack a Mole. Pick up the mallet, assign each mole something that bugs you, or some person you would like to punch out, and start sacking away. Keep it up until you feel better. Ihave done it and it works great.
Rami
RAMI
The only bad part of this...
The looks on the faces of all the five-year-olds who are waiting in line, patiently, with sad puppydog eyes, while this great big hulking adult is hogging the whack-a-mole game while screaming out obscenities at unseen enemies?
with love,
HER
Once in a while I bare my soul, more often my soles bear me.
Go late
No obscenities.
Rami
RAMI
Gwack-a-Mole
Or, if you opt to stay at home, you could line up avocados on the workbench and angrily smash those with a mallet. And by adding a little salt and lime have a tasty treat for later...
(Sorry)
Well shit, I guess it really CAN happen here..,
.
No reason to be sorry...
I laughed for a while as all the implications of your post got to me.
with love,
HER
Once in a while I bare my soul, more often my soles bear me.
The Sledge-O-Matic is no
The Sledge-O-Matic is no more. Gallagher has retired. Apparently it was getting to be a bit much to swing that maul.
Besides, I bet the TSA gave him fits, assuming he was going to beat his way through the airplane.
I'll get a life when it's proven and substantiated to be better than what I'm currently experiencing.
moods
i find good music and a long hot steaming bath or shower works for me . nothing like the sound of Mike Oldfield wafting through the steaming air that has a beat any one can dance to also making my 5 foot tall infinity speakers shake the apartment
well ....
I went out for an hours power walk. My mood is better but my lower back is killing me. Gotta stop swinging those hips when I walk.
I'm reminded of the line from
I'm reminded of the line from Zorro, the Gay Blade. "Swing, those, heeeps" 'Now say, 'You naughty, naughty, Alcade!'
I'll get a life when it's proven and substantiated to be better than what I'm currently experiencing.
Bwahahahahahahaha
I remember that! OMG. That just made me laugh so hard.
Upon my liar's chair
Full of broken thoughts
I cannot repair