But a chance encounter with Tommy Browder and his girlfriend Jennifer helps put things in perspective.
A Tommy Browder Tale
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And it must follow, as the night the day,
Thou canst not then be false to any man.”
- Hamlet, act I, scene iii.
“We have all a better guide in ourselves, if we would attend to it,
than any other person can be.” - Jane Austen
Tommy Browder stood at the entrance to the food court and sighed, his hands full of shopping bags.
‘Thank God that’s over,’ he thought. ‘Now all I need to do is chill and wait for Jen, and that shouldn’t be hard.’
He moved forward, looking for an empty table where he could put down the bags and set up camp, maybe pick up a snack or something while he waited. The place was pretty crowded this close to lunch, and empty tables were hard to find.
Then he heard several people laughing, and turned to see a dark-haired girl sitting alone at a corner table surrounded by three older boys. She was hunched over, trying to protect herself as they hung over her, tugging at her hair and trying to poke her chest. When she tossed her head to shake a lock of hair free from one of the boys, Tommy realized that the girl was Josie, Tony DeFranco’s “new” daughter.
He sighed. ‘Why are there so many idiots in the world? And why do I seem to run into more than my share?’
“Josie!” he called, and all three of the boys looked up. “Hey, girl, I’ve been looking everywhere for you. Thanks for finding us a table.”
The tallest of the boys looked at him as if he was some kind of alien.
“Can I help you with something?” Tommy said, dumping the bags on a chair.
“Yeah.” The leader of the group grinned. “Why don’t you take a walk?”
Tommy looked back, narrowed his eyes and cocked his head.
“Just took one,” he replied evenly. “Now it’s your turn.”
“What do you mean?”
“What I said. I’m gonna have lunch with my friend, and you’re gonna walk away.”
One of the other boys stepped forward, his lip curled in a sneer. “Who’s gonna make us? You?”
Tommy smiled, and shook his head. “Hell, no. It’s my day off. And it’s not my job anyway. That’s what they pay the guy in the uniform over there for, isn’t it — dealing with jerks like you?”
The leader put his hand on the second boy’s shoulder and glared at Tommy. “What’s your problem?”
“I don’t have a problem.” Tommy’s voice cut through the background noise of the food court. “You do. Or you will, if you don’t stop messing with my friend and leave.”
The third boy stepped forward.
“Listen, man, you’ve got it wrong. This isn’t even a girl,” he said, apparently trying to be helpful. “He’s Jo —“
Tommy stepped forward and put his finger on the boy’s chest. His mouth snapped shut.
“Hey,” he said softly. “I know who she is, and so does she. You don’t. But that’s okay. All you need to know is that if you don’t leave now, I’ll call the mall security guy over and tell him you’re hassling Josie here. Then if you don’t leave, he’ll use his radio to call some of his mall security friends, and none of you will be able to come back here and bother anybody again. Ever.”
Josie looked up at Tommy, and saw him smile, very slowly. The third boy took a step back.
“They don’t care who she is, and neither should you. All they care about is who’s causing trouble, and who isn’t. And they can ban your asses if they want to. So why not save everybody a lot of trouble, and get the hell out of here?” Tommy looked over the boy’s shoulder. "Unless you want to be banned? Hey, he's looking this way!"
He started to raise his hand to get the security guy's attention. All three boys glanced quickly over their shoulders, saw him looking back, and walked quickly towards the escalators. Tommy watched them go until they sank out of sight, then fell into a chair with a sigh.
“Thank you,” Josie said with a smile. The boy shook his head.
“Damn, I hate malls,” he replied. She looked at him, and he shrugged. “It’s not personal or anything. I just don’t like shopping. I mean, I don’t mind getting the things I need, but places like this are full of people who either want things just for the sake of having them — or jerks who don’t seem to have anywhere better to go, and nothing else to do here but cause trouble.”
She looked at him. “So if you hate malls so much, why are you here?”
He shrugged. “Aunt Phyllis heard that Jen and I were gonna meet here and decided that I needed more clothes to last out the summer. She gave me a chunk of cash to make it happen, and wouldn’t take no for an answer.” He picked up a few bags and shook them. “So ... more clothes. Most of it is the same as the stuff I have at home, only now I have more of it. Mission accomplished.”
Tommy dropped the bags back on the chair, and Josie tilted her head. “I still don’t get it. You hate malls. Why meet here?”
“I don’t like shopping, but Jennifer does, and what makes her happy makes me happy. Since I get to make Aunt Phyllis happy, too, it’s a win-win.”
“But you’re not happy.”
“Sure I am. I just get my happiness where I can find it. Today, I’m finding it by giving Jen and Aunt Phyllis what they want. I might even get some from you, once you forget about those dumbasses.” Tommy grinned, then gave Josie a closer look. “I like the hair. It’s nice. Much better than the blonde wig.”
She reached up and touched it gently. “Thanks. I got hair extensions, and they’re the same color as my real hair. Really expensive, too. Once Mom and Daddy decided to let me be who I really am, Mom put her foot down and made Daddy agree to pay for ‘em. He didn’t fuss too much — said my being blonde just didn’t seem right. It made his teeth ache, whatever that means.” She smiled. “And since it brings me closer to passing in public, he didn’t put up too much of a fuss. He’s still worried about something happening to me again.” She sighed. “Like it almost did today.”
Tommy shifted in his seat. “I hate to say it, but that’s ‘cause you didn’t think like a girl.”
Josie looked up. “What do you mean?”
“You were so busy trying not to call attention to yourself that you didn’t even think about calling the security guy. It’s his job to protect girls from being hassled. Most girls know that in a place like this, help is only a shout away.”
She went very quiet. Tommy reached out and touched her hand. “Hey, it’s okay. You’re still new at this.”
“No, I knew he was there, and I knew I should have called him.” Josie looked down at her hands. “I was just ... afraid.”
“Of him?” She nodded. “Why?”
“What if he turned out just like them? What if they told him who I ... who I used to be, and he took their side?”
For once, Tommy had nothing to say. Josie sighed.
“So many people seem to have a problem with this,” she said. “Most of Daddy’s sibs are okay about it, but a few of his brothers haven’t said a word to me since this all came out, and Papa Joe doesn’t even want to admit I exist. Daddy has had more than a few fights with him, and now he’s not speaking to Papa Joe either. Half the family is mad at the other half, and I’m the one responsible.”
“No you’re not.” Tommy said. “You’re just doing what you have to do to be who you are. If somebody else has a problem with it, it’s their problem, not yours.”
“But they make it my problem when who I am is the thing that makes the family fight.” Josie shook her head, and her new hair moved gently over her shoulders. She threw back her head and shook it, then reached up and tugged a few loose strands out of the corner of her mouth. “This is going to take some getting used to.”
Tommy nodded. “And not just the hair. You need to keep holding tight to who you are, no matter how many people freak on you.”
Josie looked down. “You’re right, It’s just ... hard.”
“Harder than pretending to be a boy all the time?” She looked up at him and Tommy smiled. “Look, you already figured out that you can’t live your life trying to be something you’re not. You tried that for years, remember? You only made yourself sad. Then you stood up and told your folks the truth. They’re standing by you, and so am I. And so is everyone else in your family that sees the girl you really are.”
“And the others? What do I do about them?”
Tommy shrugged. “Nothing. You gotta do what’s right for you, just like other people have to do what’s right for them. If Papa Joe and the others can’t see who you really are, it’s because they can’t see past what they think you are. Most folks don’t want to look at the world twice — they like thinking they already see things the way they are. But someday, maybe, with your Dad’s help, Papa Joe will learn to see past what he wants to see and see what’s real instead.” He smiled. “And I know Tony. He’s stubborn — he won’t give up until your granddad gives you a hug and makes you feel welcome.”
“You think so?”
“I know so. Like I said, I know your Dad. And Papa Joe raised him, so the old man’s gotta be smart enough to listen to Tony ... eventually.” She grinned at that, and he grinned back.
He stood up. “Hey, I need a Coke. Would you watch my stuff for me?”
Josie smiled up at him. “Sure!”
“Do you need anything?” She shook her head and waved at her own half-empty drink. Tommy smiled. “Okay, back in a sec.”
Josie picked up her soda and took a sip, watching the people walking by. Her new life was a swirl of new sensations that made her feel so right so much of the time. She loved the way the soft breeze from the air conditioning caressed her smooth legs, and the strappy heels on her feet. She loved how her new hair caressed her back with every move of her head, and even loved the way her bra straps tugged at her shoulders with the weight of her breast forms.
But best of all, she loved not living a lie. She loved not having to pretend to be Joey anymore. She loved that Mom and Daddy finally saw that she needed to be herself, and that Tommy came along when he did that night to save her.
‘I guess he wound up saving me twice that night,’ she thought, ‘once from Keller, and once when he made Daddy see me for who I truly am.’
Josie went to put her cup back on the table and noticed the trace of lipstick around the straw. It made her smile.
“Excuse me, Miss?”
She looked up at the mall security guard that Tommy had been pointing out to those boys to make them leave. Her heart jumped, just a little. He was tall, with brown hair that had subtle red highlights, and his uniform fit well, showing off a body that seemed to reach out and grab Josie right behind her navel and make her tummy all warm.
‘Oh my God!’ Her whole body turned to jello. ‘He’s gorgeous!’
“Y... yes?” Her voice quavered. “Is something wrong?”
“No, not at all.” He smiled at her, and she melted a bit more. “I just wanted to apologize for not stepping in before. I wasn’t sure whether I should, and I probably let it go on for too long. When your friend arrived, he seemed to handle it okay, but I wanted to let you know that I was watching, and I would have gotten involved if it had gone on for too much longer.”
“Thank you,” she said softly.
“The thing is, you didn’t say anything, so I couldn’t tell if it was just teasing or harassment. If it happens again, don’t wait. Just call for help, and we’ll take care of it. No need to be embarrassed. That’s what we’re here for, after all. Okay?”
“I will.” Josie smiled up at him. “I promise.”
“All right, then. Have a great day!” He turned and walked back to his vantage point, giving Josie a long lingering view of his tight bottom that made her squirm in her seat.
“God, when did they start making mall security guys that look that good?”
Josie turned to see Jennifer Shea, Tommy’s girlfriend. She smiled, and Jennifer smiled back.
“I don’t know,” she replied, “but I sure hope they don’t change their minds before I’m old enough to snag one.”
“You’re Josie, right? Tommy’s friend?” Josie nodded, and Jennifer put her purse down on the table and sat in the chair next to her.
“And you must be Jennifer. Tommy’s here, somewhere. He went to get a Coke, but he’ll be right back.” She smiled. “He talks about you all the time, you know.”
“He’d better,” she said with a small laugh. “I’d like to think he can’t stop thinking about me when we’re apart, since that’s how I feel.”
“He was telling me how much he hates malls, but he knows you love shopping, so here he is. Just to make you happy.” Josie looked at her and smiled. “You have got to be the luckiest girl on the planet to have him in love with you.”
“I am,” Jennifer replied, her eyes narrowing. “So hands off, okay?”
Josie sat up. “What? I wouldn’t ... I couldn’t ...”
Jennifer threw her a grin and put her hand on the other girl’s arm. “Chill, girl. I’m just teasing. I know where his heart is, and I know you guys are friends. So no worries, ‘kay?”
Josie nodded, and smiled tentatively. There was a moment of silence, and Jennifer sighed.
“I really am sorry I freaked you out,” she said. “I should have guessed you wouldn’t know I was just fooling around. I know you haven’t been at this girl thing very long.”
“You do?” The other girl looked up, surprised. Jennifer gave Josie’s arm a squeeze.
“Of course,” she replied, “Tommy told me all about what happened the other night. No secret between us. In fact, I’d been hoping to meet you.”
“Oh?”
Jennifer nodded. “I’ve been thinking a lot about how hard this must be for you,” she said softly. “Finally telling everyone who you are inside, then trying to make up for all the time you pretended to be a boy. Tommy said you don’t have any sisters?”
“That’s right.” Josie picked up her drink and took a sip. “Just me, Mom and Daddy.”
“That means the only person you’ve got to teach you how to be a girl is your Mom. That’s got to be awkward.”
“Pretty much.” She sighed. “It’s been a long time since she was my age, so as much as I love her, her advice might be a little out of date.”
Jennifer went quiet for a moment, then said, “Wouldn’t you like some help from someone a little closer to your age?”
“That would be great,” Josie replied, a little sadly, “but finding someone who understands and wants to help? That’s going to be hard.”
“Not so hard,” Jennifer replied, and smiled. “You’re looking at her.”
Josie turned and looked at her, her eyes wide. “Really? You’d help me?”
“Well, I don’t have any sisters either,” she said, “and I’ve always wanted one. If you’re interested, that is?”
With a ear-piercing squeal, Josie jumped up and hugged the surprised Jennifer.
“Yes, yes, yes!” She hugged her again, and Jennifer hugged her back, as every eye in the food court focused on the pair. “Thank you, thank you thank you!”
“I see you’ve gotten past that whole ‘not calling attention to yourself’ thing,” Tommy said, standing a short distance away and watching it all with a grin. “Nice going, Jen! Did you teach her that?”
“It’s her first lesson in girlhood.” Jennifer took the Coke out of Tommy’s hand, put it on the table, and gave him a kiss. “We LIKE being noticed.”
“So I’ve noticed,” Tommy said, and kissed her back. “So you’re giving lessons now?”
“Only to my new sister,” Jen replied. “But judging by her reaction, I’m not sure how much I can teach her. I’ve never heard a more heartfelt ‘squeeeeee’ in my life.”
Josie blushed all over, and Tommy smiled.
“Love the hair,” Jennifer said, tilting her head to scope out Josie’s look. “A little, ummm ... straight, though.”
“That’s because I just got extensions.” Josie turned her head slightly to give the other girl a better look. “And since they’re new, I can’t wash them until tomorrow night.”
“They look really good. I wouldn’t have guessed. How long have you had them?”
“Just a day.”
“Well, we’ll go back to the salon for the first washing, so they can show you how to do it right.”
Jennifer gave a little finger twirl to Josie, and the other girl responded with a model’s spin and a small giggle. “Maybe we can get ‘em to give you a bit of curl after the shampoo, too. You need a little bounce and body, if they can manage it. Using a curling iron or hot rollers can be tricky, too.”
“Have you ever had extensions?”
“No, but I had a friend who did, and she had to be very careful ...”
Both girls sat back down at the table, and Tommy sat, too. He drank his soda quietly, watching the female bonding ritual with a silly grin on his face.
‘It’s almost worth going to the mall,’ he thought, ‘just to see these two together.’
Josie looked over and caught him grinning.
“What’s that smile for?” she said, and Jennifer looked over at him, too.
“Hey!” Tommy put down the Coke and raised both hands. “I told you before. I get my happiness where I can find it. Right now, I’ve got a large Coke, a comfy chair, and two pretty girls to look at. I’m good.”
“Well, don’t get too comfy, Mister Browder,” Jennifer said with a grin of her own. “Josie needs to learn the fine art of shopping, and we’re not leaving here until she’s mastered it. Okay?”
His smile dimmed a little, but only until he took another look at the expression on Josie’s face. Then it grew to a grin again.
“Sounds okay to me.” Tommy rose to his feet. “Just don’t expect me to learn anything. I’m just along to keep you two company. I didn’t sign up for girl lessons.”
“And I don’t plan on giving you any,” Jennifer replied, standing up and putting her arms around him. “I love you just the way you are.”
“Good to know,” Tommy whispered, just before she kissed him.
Comments
A Very Nice, Sweet Story
Well Done, Randalynn! I enjoyed this story very much. It stands very well on its own, but would make a cute series.
Thank you!
Diane
It's actually the fourth story ...
... in a series about Tommy and his adventures: Beyond Fashion, Standing Up, Passing It On and Keeping It Real.
I really should group them in order under a header page and call them "The Tommy Browder Tales." Now if only I could figure out how. *grin*
Randa
. You need to keep holding tight to who you are...
...I guess he wound up saving me twice that night, she thought, once from Keller, and once when he made Daddy see me for who I truly am. And a new friend in Jennifer as well. Great continuation and promise for so much more...and an Italian family in the center of it all. Molte grazie e vi ringrazio per la tenuta è reale, mi sorella!
She was born for all the wrong reasons but grew up for all the right ones.
Possa Dio riccamente vi benedica, tutto il mio amore, Andrea
Love, Andrea Lena
go with the flow
These unscheduled, loosely interconnected stand alone episodes seem like the perfect format for the Tommy Browder stories.
Seems to match his personality, his zen spirit. This was a great one. Nothing terribly cataclysmic, just a sweet little sketch...
Josie's situation and thoughts; Jennifer showing why she's someone Tommy can click so well with as boyfriend/girlfriend;
and with Tommy making excellent use of the Samaurai "no sword doctrine" against those mall creeps. Or something...
But has anyone ever got a decent meal at a mall food court? I'd like to know...
~~~hugs, Laika
What borders on stupidity?
Canada and Mexico.
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I have :3
But then again I'm easily pleased mew :3
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I know who I am, I am me, and I like me ^^
Bisexual, transsexual, gamer girl, princess, furry that writes horror stories and proud ^^
I know who I am, I am me, and I like me ^^
Transgender, Gamer, Little, Princess, Therian and proud :D
Nice one Randalynn
ALISON
There is nothing in life that compares with acceptance!
This is a great series and I,for one,hope you continue it.
ALISON
Girl Lessons
Sounds okay to me. Tommy rose to his feet. Just don't expect me to learn anything. I'm just along to keep you two company. I didn't sign up for girl lessons.
And I don't plan on giving you any, Jennifer replied, standing up and putting her arms around him. I love you just the way you are.
Of course, Tommy who is wise beyond his years (and mine!), is going to learn girl lessons anyway, just by being with those two. He's just not going to realise it.
This is a wonderful series, giving a whole different perspective to tg matters, and reminding us that normal people can be ok, too.
I can see there's plenty of potential for further of these excellent stories.
Penny
Like i write once, Tommy
Like i write once, Tommy really is great guy. Jennifer also is great. They are making great couple.
An apology, of sorts
I received a PM from someone who has always loved my work, and she told me she felt disappointed by this story. Admittedly, nothing truly earth-shattering occurs, but I wanted to do something a little more low-key with Tommy and his friends - a little slice-of-life with some minor drama, a bit of angst, and a happy ending.
For anyone else who may have felt the story wasn't up to the same dramatic standards as the others, I'm sorry. It was just the Tommy story that wanted to be written this time around, so I gave in and wrote it.
For those who thought it was just fine as it was, please disregard this apology. *grin*
*hugs*
Randalynn
Apology disregarded
Sometimes it's just nice to read a story with no nasty bit's, A story that leaves you with a smile on your face, Happy in the knowledge that there are more good people than bad on this planet of ours!
Kirri
Can't save the world every day!
I thought that this was very nice. No huge events or life or death struggles. Just a good hearted kid reminding some punks of their manners. Not quiet that random act of kindness but close enough! All the more important in its way because that is the way the world really will be saved. Very nice Randalynn!
Hugs!
Grover
Tommy doesn't have to save the world every day!
He needs a bit of downtime too, haha. I thought it was just right.
A wonderful tale, and Tommy is probably more true to himself than any person I've ever met.
Thanks, and I'm looking for the next!
Hugs
Carla Ann
Acceptance !!
ALISON
I was one of the first to read this story but was called away so this is a belated comment. I have read all of your Tommy
stories and loved them all and this was no exception. The way Tommy and his girl show their acceptance to Josie is really great. Jennifer telling Josie that she wants a sister was just so sweet. Thank you so much.
ALISON
Always A Winner
Tommy did very nicely thank you. Who needs an apology?
Joanne
So Far
I have enjoyed all the stories written by you. I finished all the ones you've published here as of tonight.
The only sad thing is, it was submitted 2010/01/04, which puts this around 1½ years since it was submitted. I feel like the guy who arrived at the party to find the floors being buffed.
Hope to see some new stuff!
I've posted a few things ...
... since then, including four stories in the past month or so, and I do plan to keep posting. *smile* It just takes me a while to get something finished and posted, unless I'm inspired or driven. Writing is important to me, but time is the one thing I can't get more of, and as a result, my productivity is less than ideal. Add to that the fact that I'm too much the perfectionist from time to time, and it's often a while between stories.
But I will keep writing, because I love it. And because folks like you tell me they enjoy reading what I write. *grin* Thanks for taking the time to comment, and for reading it all.
Randalynn
That's what so amazes me about some of the people at BC
Randalynn in particular.
I have seen a story by someone else here that elicits strong responses by us readers and BAAM! Randa has written a knock-your-socks-off continuation/what if/alternative story. Usually one where the poor victim of this earlier story gets justice or at least a chance for someone to hear their cries of outrage. When something pushes her buttons the words pour out and onto the screen.
There are a number of others here who have this ability to write rapidly and well in response to something, be it a story here or something in the news, that *pushes their buttons*. But few have done it so often and so well as Randa.
John in Wauwatosa
P.S. If you live in the northern states, I'm aprox 43% north 88 % west, get out and into the woods. The spring ephemerals -- IE wildflowers are out in force and many won't last long.
Saw masses of Dutchman's Britches , Blood Root and others flowering at Koshkonong Mounds County Park in Jefferson County in Wisconsin today. That the park also has many fine examples of effigy mounds made it all the sweeter.
If the Bleeding Heart plants in your neighborhood are close to blooming and the daffodils are at their peak the time is ripe. With luck the frogs and toads will be singing as well.
Ah... amphibian mating rituals!
John in Wauwatosa
Sounds Like John Wants To Kiss A Frog
Let's be careful out there in Wauwatosa. I'm not sure if interspecies sex is permitted on this site,
Joanne
Ribbit ribbit ribbit ... OH MY ...! Ribbit
Hey,
have you ever chanced upon a group of frogs ... um doing it?
Saw some a few years ago in April at Horicon National Wildlife Refuge just off the Eggret Trail, a third of a mile long zig-zagging floating dock assembly that lets you get out a ways into the huge cattail marsh.
Made a Roman orgy, even a night at Hugh Hefner'a mansion in his prime seem tame.
-- grin --
Soooo many frogs... With the attitude of "...soooo little time."
John in Wauwatosa
John in Wauwatosa
the one thing that really bothers me about TG fiction in general
Well, don't get too comfy, Mister Browder, Jennifer said with a grin of her own. Josie needs to learn the fine art of shopping, and we're not leaving here until she's mastered it. Okay?
Are things like this. I mean, in a genre and a community that is more about acceptance of people as individuals than any other, we are constantly being hit with tropes like this seemingly saying that there's only one way to be a girl. I happen to know a lot of women in my life who are most definitely very much women who hate shopping. I also know at least as many guys who are most definitely very much guys who love shopping.
And this is only one example of many. Thing is, this one seems to be so ingrained in the genre that no one has bothered to turn it on its head yet. I was to be honest kind of hoping that Randa would, she's been so good at turning TG tropes on their head before now.
Abigail Drew.
Well, in this instance ...
... Josie really does need to learn the fine art of shopping. She may not enjoy it eventually -- after all, she's really never shopped with a contemporary before -- but a woman really does need to think about and deal with more obstacles when she shops than a man. Sizes are hardly standardized and vary from manufacturer to manufacturer, as does cut. And styles can just not be right for you in some subtle way that you won't understand if you don't explore the options out there, or send signals you don't want to send, which can be awkward.
The bottom line is, Josie needs clothes because she's new to expressing herself as a girl and her closet is hardly full. Jennifer is going to help her get them, and teach her a bit about shopping as a woman, because it's sort of "need to know" stuff that, as Tommy puts it, is "good to know." *grin*
That being sad, you're right. Not all women enjoy shopping. I don't. I love finding clothing manufacturers that I know cut their clothes to fit my body (being both tiny and at the same time ... nicely shaped can be an issue), and I enjoy finding new outfits to wear. But wandering from store to store in a mall used to wear me out quickly, and it only became tolerable if I had others to share it with. These days, I catalog-shop when I can, and only do it in person when I must.
You may find me putting characters who don't give a hoot about shopping in a story sometime. But in this situation, Josie really does need to learn. *smile*
Randalynn
Well, that makes more sense
Well, that makes more sense than the way it came off sounding to me. Men's clothing isn't always exactly a walk in the park either. My waist may be 34", but certain types of fabric shrink differently after first wash, so I actually range between 33" and 36". and shirts... you might be surprised just how differently men's shirts can be cut and shaped.
So the problem does exist on both sides, but I can certainly understand it being worse for women and if not worse, certainly different enough, so a crash course in feminine fashion would be necessary.
Abigail Drew.
“I love you just the way you are.â€
And I love these stories. Any chance there will be more?
Dorothycolleen
I really enjoyed these stories too
I hope to see more from Tommy. It would be interesting to see if his man hating Aunt has changed any.