I have a few memories from when I was three or four. The first one is from when I first realized that I should have been a girl. I remember thinking that God made a mistake and that I should have been born a girl. I realized that all the toys I wanted to play with (dolls for instance) were for girls and not boys. I had no real interest with playing with toy cars. My Matchbox cars were usually in near mint condition because of that fact. I was never really a rough and tumble kid. I wanted a Dawn doll and got one, for a little while, I also had a Dawn colorform set, where you can change the clothes on the doll forms that was one of my favorite toys.

Around this time, I would walk on the balls of my bare feet pretending that I was walking in high heels. At this time I did not know of the physical difference between the sexes and so I knew I was going to grow up and become a woman.

My mother, when we were visiting her friends on a Sunday would have me stay in the kitchen and hear the women talk. So I learned early about gossip. lol. Of course, the only other choice I had was to go with the men and watch Football (American) on the television. Yuch. As you can tell I was never much into sports.

Another vivid memory I have from this period was walking by a friend's house and an older teen boy called me a fag. I didn't know what that was then, but I realized from the way it was said that it was a bad thing. I guess looking back that it was noticable that I was not really a boy, but a girl in boys clothing. lol