Okay! I woulda posted earlier, but TopShelf wouldn't even load. Hrm. I dunno if it was down or just my ability to access it. The latest plan is this: when the story is all done, I'm gonna schedule a time to be on IRC for a total FTS Q&A -- no question about the series will be unanswered (as long as it's ASKED). I'd really like anyone that has questions about it to be there, as we're rapidly approaching the end. Scott Ramsey and Eric have theorized a lot -- but so have some others! Please keep an eye out for when I'm gonna do it. When it's done, I'll post the (cleaned up) log of the session as a DVD Special Feature 'Behind the Scenes and Making of FTS' the next day. Okay, here's part 15, enjoy!
Part 15
by Edeyn Hannah Blackeney
"Why did you give them my brush?” asked Jeff as he followed Emily into the kitchen.
“So they'd leave us alone,” Emily answered, “besides... um, aren't you curious? Don't get mad, but, don't you want to know? I mean, what if your mom wasn't your mom?”
“She was,” said the scowling boy, “and she still is. That's where I was day before yesterday when I came home and that cop was here. I was visiting her. I plan to every week on Saturday. You can come too, if you like, but I get time alone with her.”
“I'm sorry, Jeff,” she said quietly, biting her lower lip, “I'd like that, though.”
“Whatever,” he snapped and stormed up the stairs.
“Wait. Jeff.”
He stopped and spun around.
“What?”
“I just... well, I can't help thinking of everything that's happened. I mean, if Janette was this Marlene lady before you two moved here. And if she had a daughter named Jessica, but not a son named Jeff. Where did you come from, and where is Jessica?” reasoned Emily.
A thought occurred to her.
“Jeff... how well do you remember things from when we were small?” she asked.
He leaned against the wall of the stairway, propping one foot up on the handrail as he looked at her.
“I don't really. I mean, we were both only two when I moved here with Mom. The first real thing I remember is the mudball fight,” he answered.
Emily grinned in remembrance, herself, “The morning of the first day in Kindergarten, right? So we both went to school for the very first time with giant brown blobs on our clothes. Ugh. Daddy made me wear that horrible frothy pink dress and your mom made you wear a white shirt and tie.”
He nodded, and returned her grin with a small smile.
She grew serious again and said, “Okay... hear me out. What if you happen to be this Jessica person?”
He startled and tumbled down the three steps he had climbed.
“Are you nuts? I'm not a girl... and I don't wanna be a girl!”
“Gee. Thanks,” she said wryly.
“What? Oh, come on! You said just the other day that even you weren't sure you wanted to be a girl!” he protested.
“Not quite. I said I thought about being a boy, but decided I liked being a girl sometimes,” she pointed out to him.
“So... what exactly are you asking or suggesting, then?” he asked, deflating.
“Well... I don't know how to ask this... do you know the difference between a girl and a boy? Because, if you're not sure... There's this video that Dad used to explain things about, ah, boys and sex and stuff to me last Spring. Just... come on,” she said, helping him up off the floor and dragging him into the living room.
* * * * * * *
Jeff stared wide-eyed at the paused screen. He rewound, watched the screen in slo-mo, and paused again.
“So. Not only do I find out just how humongous and weird Mom lied to me, but that is sex?”
“I'm sorry, Jessica,” said Emily.
Jeff stormed to his feet and loomed over her, “You are NEVER to call me that ever again! Do you understand me?” he nearly screamed, angrier than she had ever seen.
Emily yelped in fear, all color draining from her face as she nodded in fearful assent.
He spun and stomped back and forth as he ranted, and Emily suspected it was more to her— ah, himself than to or at her. “I am a boy! I always have been, and I always will be! Not you, and not anyone can tell me differently! I'm not going with the Ugg, guy. If they try to make me, I'll run away, and no one will see me again!”
He stood panting and on the verge of tears. Emily got up and went to him to hug him. They were still there when Matt came in the front door.
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Bob Arnold
To Clarify
I didn't mean tonight :)
I mean after I've finished off the story completely
Edeyn
Sorry Edeyn
I really, really love this story but I can't suspend my disbelief on this part. I think you convey very well Jeff's turmoil over this revelation, but I just don't buy into the whole premise.
I am interested to see how Matt and Em are gonna deal with this tho ...
Scott
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Bree
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PM
If you PM me with your questions surrounding how, I think I can explain this to even satisfy you :)
Edeyn
Dilemma
I've been struggling with Scott's dilemma too. It definitely strains my suspension of disbelief to think that Jeff doesn't know he is different from other boys. But, perhaps, 'he' could have been told he had an injury or birth defect, but it is about private parts so keep quiet. Keeping Jeff ignorant of what girls have and other facts might be possible,though tough. I think that it would take a doctor (for school physicals)and probably a school nurse in on it, but if there was abuse, there would be sympathetic people.
Anyway, this is too good to give up on now, and fiction happens in a different world from this one.
Keep it up, Edeyn. The bigger question I have is how you can do two stories that are so good at the same time.
Hugs;
Jan
Remember My Cherie Amore? PLOT SPOILER for My Cherie Amore
In Angela Rasch's story -- now closed for remodeling -- the intersexed twin was both male and female and actually had a menstral cycle but through consitent but loving lies and being exempted from PE and any overnights he/she made it into her med/late teens not knowing he was also a girl and likely more a girl than a boy.
You may all breathe now.
It's possible he didn't know he was a she or possibly a bit of both. I see theremay have been a swap because he says his mom is not dead. Now I'm confused.
Your evil Edeyn, keep it up.
John in Wauwatosa
John in Wauwatosa
She's dead
But that doesn't make her no longer his mom -- see?
Edeyn
See the above :)
Same thing I told Scott, PM me with your specific questions and I'll endeavour to answer to your satisfaction
Edeyn
He's 13, went to public schools, and ...
... doesn't know the physical difference between girls and boys? Didn't he wonder when he saw other boys standing in front of the urinals to piss why he had to sit? I'm with the stretching suspension of disbelief too far crowd. (Although - true story - my first year of teaching (1966) I had a 6th grade girl student who was pregnant and gave birth and never knew it. Her family was straight from the Ozarks. She was told she had a tumor, and when her water broke, she was sedated and kept that way till after the birth. The child was given up for adoption and she never saw it. I lost track of the family and don't know what happened to the girl. She'd be about 51 now, so if she lived, she must have found out somewhere along the line.)
I figured that when Jeff said he was visiting his mom he meant her grave at the cemetary.
"All the world really is a stage, darlings, so strut your stuff, have fun, and give the public a good show!" Miss Jezzi Belle at the end of each show
BE a lady!
Ozarks
May I point out, I'm from the Ozarks... and this kind of story (that Jezzi just related) is why I have no issue with kids NOT knowing the difference until Health classes
Edeyn
Sadly...
That doesn't suspend the disbelief that just scares me.
JC
The Legendary Lost Ninja
Allow me to point out...
That as recently as November 2006 I saw an add in the newspaper in the area I grew up in calling for anyone interested in Rural Mail Delivery to apply -- must provide own Donkey or Mule
Edeyn