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I seem to be consciously and unconsciously trying to out myself. Yesterday, I was playing Wii with my daughter when she realized my character's name, and asked "Dorothy?" I just passed it off as just the name of my character, and she accepted that. I keep this up and I will be out long before I am ready.
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I'd die if someone who
I'd die if someone who didn't know about me saw my XBox Live avatar ;-)
(Don't mind the Bratz! Midnight Dance wallpaper in the background ;-))
*hug* I know exactly how you feel though. I think as we become more comfortable with ourselves we start to sub-consciously slip like that. Like I have two pairs of heels under the edge of my bed right now, where a year ago? I would've had them buried deep under three winter coats :-)
It's probably a silly example, but you get the idea :-)
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That's not uncommon
Subconscious (or even conscious) activities that could lead to outing yourself are not uncommon. (My shrink has assured me that I'm not alone in this...)
I actually have to be careful to NOT out myself more lately, as I move closer (at a crawl) to transitioning. At least a half dozen times, I caught myself signing a work e-mail Annette, or Anne. (I actually did sign ONE as Annette, but it seems like the client didn't notice. (I "think" I was lucky... There ARE times I wish I were "outed" So that would be done, but I know that doing it smoothly is safer.)
Good Luck,
Anne
I've done that before.
I've done that before. Only, in my case, I had already changed my name but almost signed Saless instead of my RL name! ;)
Saless
"But it is also tradition that times *must* and always do change, my friend." - Eddie Murphy, Coming To America
Oh, THAT I've done, Saless!
... One time I was filling out an application over the phone for a bank loan. Instead of giving the woman my social security number, I accidentally started rattling off my ICQ instant messenger contact number. :-P
Not sure if ICQ's changed now as I haven't used it in years, but my SS# and ICQ# were so similar that I only realized my mistake after I ran out of numbers >_>
She thought it was hilarious :-P
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Ready or Not?
Such mistakes just shows how real the "new" identity is for you. The "process" might have run faster than you ever thought. I think you need to sit down and schedule your final change. If not a day by day schedule, but at least what might be needed to do month by month. Should some of the items be fixed earlier , just take one out of the following months. Your subconsciousness has talked and that is something that you canot fly from.
Good luck
Ginnie
Your earlier question need a little more thought from me, but will be answered.
GinnieG
You'll be amazed...
at the hugeness of the Hints you'll drop without anyone actually getting it. Yes, it does seem to be a subconscious urge, and it is you trying to tell yourself something, but the shocking *denseness* of people for not getting it themselves mean you will still, at some point, have to actually bite the bullet and deliberately tell them. :-)