I used to weep and kill my pillow after my shrink said that my emotional development had been arrested. My God, I can't remember her breaking any laws! At the time, she said I was emotionally 12. Oh, God no! I did not want to go through being 12 again. Imagine me driving on busy freeways! Yalla!
So, now she will give me 17! GAH!
That must be why I listen to Shakira, Katy Perry, Taylor Swift, GaGa, Ke$ha, Avril Lavigne and other pop grls.
One thing I notice in the lyrics of all these singers is a complaint that most women seem to share. "I'm not your, recepticle, your storage shed", "I wanna dance in my Pants", "chase you until you love me", "I hate your stupid pickup truck, you never let me drive" and so on. I have asked some of my girl friends, about some of these statements, and so far they have all like totally "gotten it".
Of course, fighting my sensuality down and staying out of trouble is a big problem for me. I mean like it is so totally embarrassing to be caught sitting at a light, in full Hijab, bumping and grinding in my seat while listening to GaGa do, "Just Dance"! Oh, you can't imagine what it was like to have this man with his funny little hat giving me the fatherly glare! Haraam, Haraam! I could just see him mouthing the words at me. I don't think he goes to my Majid, so it is like OK, right?
OH,how could I have gotten so far off track from what I had intended to say? OH, yes, I remember. I think the lyrics to most of the female Pop songs, hold key insights into the female experience, and when we begin to try to understand their mind set on so many of these issues, it will perhaps help us to begin to over come the years of forced masculinization that we endured. It sure has me.
Much Peace
Khadijah Gwen
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I Hear Ya!
I hear ya on that point. I personally know many women who fit the profile for many of these songs. There are a few more I can add too. "Things That Never Cross A Man's Mind" by Kellie Pickler and "Before He Cheats" by Carrie Underwood. The first time I heard the latter, I thought that my friend Lynda would do exactly what was done in that song if her boyfriend ever cheated. She is a mean one to cross if a guy ever messes with her and I'm proud to call her one of my best friends.
It's The Adventure, Not The Destination!
For me, it was about discovering that there were Libraries when I was 11. My gosh, how astonishing that someone would put books in one place, and I could use them! Then there was going across the mountains into Central Oregon and for the first time smelling sage brush and Juniper, and seeing the big sky, and like NO RAIN, for like days! How can this be?
Then there was the discovery, when I went to Honduras to help rebuild after Hurricane Mitch, that Hispanics did not all carry knives and want to stab me. How amazing that my parents had gotten it wrong!
Then there was going to Kenya and discovering that there were um Black People there! They were nice, and spoke the most amazing English with a british accent!
So, having seen such amazing things, perhaps it enabled me to handle Gwen when she began to waken. I now see the times before my awakening as a comical cartoon where the stooge is sitting on the coffin lid trying to keep the monster in there. For me and many others, the monster turned out to be a Princess in a monster suit!
Much Peace
K
if it makes you feel any better...
My team of shrinks (I went to a gender center) said that most TSs are emotionally stunted...
Usually to about the age their desires became more than vague feelings that they could no longer resist.
From that point on we learned to be 'mature' but could not internalise that by interacting with our peers.
I rated 13/14ish... and i have little desire to improve on that.
I like being youngish...
Nobody.
Ain't being a Teen fun?
Well, mine, I think was more due to the abuse, not my GID, but much of the abuse was due to my GID, so indirectly, my GID caused the arrested development, but it was actually the abuse, and him saying he was going to beat the girl outta me. Gosh, am I going in circles again, um where was I.
Do ya think there is a dancing gene? If there is, I must have it. :)
Khaduuj