Dismissed and abandoned You were my hero I worshipped you You sent me a card without signing it No longer worth looking out for I was your biggest fan I adored you Help me understand You sent me song without a tune Neglected and confused When I was your brother I loved you I thought we'd be together forever Downcast and alone You were my family I needed you I find my strength
but the words we already spoke
told me all I need to know
no longer feeling loved
even though we grew up together
and now here am without you
You were the one I look up to
And now it's just you looking down
but the note inside the card
told me all I need to know
no longer feeling I belong
even though we shared a home together
now there you are without me
I was the one who needed you
But it seems you're just fine without me
Please answer the question
I thought I was doing okay
What did I do
and whom have I become
That makes me unloveable today?
but the song was the same
as any other you sang
no longer feeling human
even though we shared a heart together
but now that I'm your sister you don't love me
I was a son, a father, a nephew
but it seems that you no longer see me as me
Instead of a bond
you celebrate the divide
no longer feeling at home
even though we shared a life together
but not now the way I am today.
I was your friend, from then until the end
It wasn't I but you who chose to walk away.
in the person I've become
even though you're no longer beside me
And even set apart
I'm no longer alone
I keep company with the companion inside me
Words and music
by Andrea Lena DiMaggio
Comments
'drea
That was beautiful... sad and poignant. You have such a wonderful way with words.
Poignant,
And it resonates on many levels with me too. Thank you 'Drea, for sharing that with us....
- Jay xx
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Companion
Tragic, but too real. I've seen it said here too many times to know it's not close to the truth. Still, my siblings have learned much over the years. There might have been acceptance, but we will probably never know.
Portia
Portia
i fear this will be my fate too
i have the same issue with my brother, and i know i will probably lose him when i transition. it hurts like heck.
turned out, I didnt lose him
Just goes to show people can surprise you.
Dear Andrea
Thank you. Belle
Drea...sweet heart...
What a lovely and very haunting song. I don't know of anybody who hasn't 'lost' someone in their life with things said unsaid and things done or not done. You never cease to amaze me with your wonderful gift of being able to speak so eloquently for the rest of us.
Mea the Magnificent