Finally Finding Myself Part 4 (Updated)

Finally Finding Myself Chapter 4


As I've been updating this story, the other three chapters just needed a few tweaks. However, this one and part five just didn't flow right, so I changed part four's ending to better fit the established personalities of the characters.


Jamie dialed home on his cell phone to ask permission to go with the girls to Denny's. His dad answered the phone and was thrilled to get the call. "Of course you can go to dinner with your girlfriend, son. What kind of father would I be to say no?" Jamie thought that he should end the girlfriend talk then and there and tell his dad that Karen was just a friend. He thought better of it though, since his dad seemed prouder of him now than Jamie could ever remember him being.

He didn't want to hurt his relationship with his father, so he changed the subject. "Why are you home so early, dad?" His father was an elementary school teacher, so he normally doesn't get home until Jamie gets home, or slightly later. "We had a half-day. I don't get the whole half-day off like the kids do, since we have work to do. But I still like half-days since we still get to go home earlier than normal." Jamie found himself wishing he could get a half-day. He missed his old school, where his dad worked now. They were right next to a creek bed, so half days were always called if the water rose too high.

His father broke his train of thought. "I've got to go son, have fun. I have a special night planned for your mother, but she knows nothing about it. I've got a lot of work to do before she gets here."

"OK dad, have a nice time with mom." "I will son, you have a nice time with your girlfriend." His dad's voice seemed to get louder as he got to the last part of that sentence. Jamie could imagine his dad's face beaming with pride at his son, the "chip off the old block". Jamie sighed. "If he only knew who I really am", he thought.

Luckily, Jamie had no time to wallow in self-pity, since his friends arrived at that moment. Susan asked, "Are you ready, Jamie? My mom's picking us up out front."

Jamie was nervous about meeting Susan's mom but tried to put any fear aside. "Yeah. I just called my dad. He said it was OK for me to go." Karen smiled. "Good! There's your mom now, Susan!"

They all piled into the back of the van. Mrs. Thomas was a little surprised to see a boy in the group since her daughter had a very close-knit circle of friends. "Who is your new friend, Susan?" "This is Jamie Jameson. He's become a part of our group at lunch." Susan smiled at Jamie. Mrs. Jameson became even more surprised at this revelation since her daughter's group didn't expand too often. And, she never once saw a boy join the group. She didn't say anything, since she figured the girls were growing up. But she decided she would keep an eye on him though, just in case his hormones got the best of him. She just hoped that too many more boys wouldn't join the group. She didn't think she could handle that.

Mrs. Thomas was pulled out of her trance by a bunch of girlish laughter coming from the back seat. She looked in her rearview mirror and was surprised to see Jamie giggling right along with the girls. They burst into "Fly with Me" by the Jonas brothers, and Jamie was singing right along. She knew then that this wasn't your typical 13-year old boy. He looked the part when he first got in the van, but looking in her rearview mirror, she couldn't help but see five giggling girls. Even if one of them was about six feet tall with short hair. She stopped her thought process there. She can't let first impressions cloud her judgment, either for the good of her daughter or for Jamie. This was a boy after all. She had to think of him as such. She looked back again, just as Jamie was singing "tonight.. I.. can see the world through your eyes" and broke into a girlish giggle fit. She smiled to herself and thought, "it's not going to be easy".

Jamie and the girls were still giggling when they got into the restaurant. They had just sat down at a table and ordered grand slams when Jamie's worst nightmare came true. Out of nowhere, Jim Cleary pulled Jamie hard out of his seat. While Jamie was on the ground, and before anyone could react, he kicked Jamie repeatedly in the ribs and twice on his head. The jocks were laughing, but the rest of the restaurant wasn't. A large man pushed Jim down hard and looked down at the crying boy. "Are you alright, young man?" Jamie grabbed his midsection and tried to get up. It hurt so badly that Jamie ended up falling back to the ground, screaming in agony. Jamie had never felt pain like this before. The girls were all on their knees, teary-eyed as they hugged their friend. Jamie, feeling his consciousness failing on him, whispered what he feared might be his last words to his friends. "Thank you for letting me feel like a real girl." He barely got the words out as the darkness enveloped him.

An ambulance showed up five minutes later and took Jamie directly to the hospital, however, the wait for the other girls' ride to get there was excruciating. Once they finally got into Susan's mother's van, the girls were all silent as they rode to the hospital. They knew Jamie was effeminate, but his revelation before he passed out hit them hard. Emily, a brunette who had joined the group a year ago, and one of the two girls who talked to Jamie the least spoke up. "I feel so bad. I never talked to Jamie since I thought Karen was just being nice to him to get him to stop acting so weird." As she said that, she started crying. "It's no wonder he acts so weird. God, it's got to be so hard for him feeling like that." Mary, the short red-haired girl who shared Emily's previous views on Jamie put her arms around Emily. "I know exactly what you mean. I always tried to avoid him and never really accepted him into our group. But, now... can you imagine how hard it must be being a boy who feels like a girl?" As Mrs. Thomas heard this, she now knew her assumption about Jamie was correct. She wondered if his parents knew, and feared what they might say if they did find out. The last thing Jamie needs now is more trauma, but she knew his parents had a right to know what she knew. She'd have to find a way to break it to them before someone slipped it out, possibly making things worse.

As the girls got to the hospital, they saw Mr. and Mrs. Jameson were already at the hospital, their faces looking ravaged from crying so hard. Mrs. Thomas introduced herself. "I'm Mrs. Thomas, I'm Susan's mom." The girls looked sheepishly at his parents. Susan spoke up. "We've never actually met. I'm Susan Thomas, this is Emily Thompson, Mary Martin, and Karen Clemens. We're Jamie's friends." The two looked at Karen. Mrs. Jameson spoke up. "Hello Karen, we've heard so much about you. It's too bad we couldn't meet under better circumstances. You must be a wreck." Karen sniffed and nodded. Mr. Jameson added, "Don't worry, the doctors say Jamie's going to be alright. He's got a fractured rib and a concussion, but luckily he doesn't have anything too serious. He's a strong boy, he'll pull through."

Emily broke down at that and uncharacteristically shouted as her emotions were running high. Emily shouted at him, "She's not a strong boy. She's not even a boy! She told us she felt like she was a real girl when she was with us! I thought she was just a weird boy too, but after she told us her deepest secret we can't help but see her for what she really is!" She started crying. "And you should too!"

Mrs. Thomas covered her mouth, looked at her husband, and braced for the worst. However, Mr. Jameson simply stood up and calmly stated "I've got to go out and get some fresh air". With that, he walked past the girls and then walked out of the hospital.

In his hospital room, Jamie was conscious now, but the pain medication he was on made him woozy. He saw his mother come in, however, his father was nowhere to be seen. His mother sat by his bed and kissed his forehead. "Oh, my poor angel. I'm so sorry. I wish I hadn't been so blind to how you really felt."



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