I've passed the point of no return. I told hubby tonight what I have been doing for the past 2 months, to wit, HRT
Self prescribed and incredibly irresponsible, yes. Preferable to the alternative (which I almost did) of suicide?
You bet!
Will hubby throw me away? I dunno. I hope not. I wouldn't know what to do with myself.
What the hell do you do after 20 years of being in love, if one of you just decides to throw the other one away? The terrible thing is I know he feels the same way. He feels like my decision to transition is me deciding to throw him away, since he's said many times he would never accept it.
Anyway, I feel somewhat liberated and incredibly hurt because of the nasty things he said and now he wants me to come to bed and cuddle with him and I'm going to because he's better than a teddy bear any night.
Did I mention I love him more than life itself?
I do.
night folks.
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Be well
And good luck.
Hugs,
Erin
= Give everyone the benefit of the doubt because certainty is a fragile thing that can be shattered by one overlooked fact.
= Give everyone the benefit of the doubt because certainty is a fragile thing that can be shattered by one overlooked fact.
May your spouse...
be as supportive as mine.
My heart to yours dear one
...you almost "threw yourself away," which would have been tragic. I know everyone here is glad that you chose another path. You have done nothing to reject him, yet as much as you love him, every time he says he'll never accept you, it must be so painful. This has to hurt beyond words, since you don't know what the future will hold. My prayers with you dear one.
Possa Dio riccamente vi benedica, tutto il mio amore, Andrea
Love, Andrea Lena
It's hard to let go
A Nobody's Fault (tm) situation. You are who you are. I can imagine if I had a lesbian partner who decides to become a man, I would not be happy at all; not one bit.
Obviously if your partner is bi, it would be a lot easier but ...
*Hugs*
Kim
Good luck,
I hope it works out for you both.
Hugs,
Angharad
Angharad
Theide, You Are Doing Something Life Affirming for Yourself
Hey, I love you, gal, and think about you frequently.
If your man rejects you, I guess it will be similar to what's happened to one of us who used to be married to a het womyn, who "didn't want to be a lesbian". It seems that many het womyn/Tgal marriages stay together. I don't know how it happens. I don't know if it would help, but you might read about a few of those marriages that stay together and get ideas or share the stories with your husband. What does he think about relationship counseling? There are plenty of gay psychologists and therapists, I've had two!
> Did I mention I love him more than life itself? < This is probably bad to say, but I hope you don't mean you would suicide if he rejected you? It would certainly hurt him, if that's what you want to do, but if you love him, you shouldn't want to hurt him like that. What if he changed his mind and you were dead?
Please hang in there and try to keep communicating. Congratulations for doing HRT!
Hugs and Bright Blessings,
Renee
Ready for work, 1992.
Hugs and Bright Blessings,
Renee