I was on my own now that my wife had died of breast cancer, We loved each other and had an understanding that most people can never achieve but I had a secret that I could never share with her till about a week before she died. You see I have a female brain and my life up until now has been like a split tv screen with one part of a story running on one side of the screen and on the other side is the other half of the story running simultaneously. The one on the left side is what is actually happening and the one on the right side is like a replay when they can't decide if a goal has been awarded or not and the referee asks for a video replay on a big screen above the goal posts.