I just read an article about how more and more companies are offering SRS and Breast Augmentation for Transsexual employees in their Health Insurance plans. It talked about Wells Fargo Bank, Coca Cola,AT&T, New York Life, and others are offering SRS as a means to promote tolerance and diversity. I left a comment on the article, but I can tell you that it definitely brought out the bigots in full force on the comments page. Most of them, had absolutely no experience with the issue and spouted off from their own point of view.

I had this really vivid dream last night that surprised me because it was the first time since I started my transition, that I have dreamed in such detail. The biggest difference was that in this dream, I was 100% female. Anyway, I was a teenage girl with long curly blonde hair that reminded me of Taylor Swift's style. I was apparently around 15 or 16 and new to this town and new to this High School. This group of girls invited me to go to the movies with them, so one of my parents dropped me off.

You know the saying "When it rains, it pours? That sums up my week . First, the battery died in my car on Tuesday, then today, my AC adapter goes shot on my computer and then if that wasn't enough, my dog went to the vet with a yeast infection in his ears. It seems like things always happen like this at this time of the year. My sister paid the vet bill, but the car battery and AC adapter are not in my budget at all for the moment. I wish I had a fairy Godmother with a used Toshiba adaptor and a car battery laying around somewhere.( Fat chance of that one!

I went to see my doctor today and I took the diabetes test. My fasting glucose level was 154, so she put me on Metaformin and set new guidelines for my diet. I definitely have to lose weight too. The good news is that if we keep it under control, I can still have my SRS in the future. I am going to do everything possible to follow her instructions. I am grateful that we caught this early on before it turned into something more serious.

Hugs,

Jen

Today my family will declare me to be over-the-hill officially as I have achieved that milestone that women don't talk about. I have my George Jones CD cued to "I Don't Need Your Rocking Chair" and I will use it to remind everyone who rubs it in too much! There is a few more miles left in this girl before she is officially "Over -the- hill" I don't intend to go quietly either! At least I can say I have the best gift already. The wonderful friends and family I have!

I have had a blue day today. I was asked what I wanted to do for my big milestone birthday coming up on the 27th and I told my family that I wanted to invite a few friends over to share it with me. I found out one of them will be in for Thanksgiving with her family, but she will be going back home the same day and won't be able to come back for Sat. My other friend is still mad at me and she probably won't want to come for my birthday. I just don't know why I am still taking this so hard over the last month, but it still hurts me so much. I just can't let go of things so easily.

I have been feeling depressed over the last few days and I have been crying more than I have for a long time. One of my best friends refuses to speak to me now because I got caught in the middle of a drama starring one of our mutual now ex friends from High School. This guy is a nutjob and he has been stalking her. He is convinced they are a couple even when she tries to tell him they aren't. I got mad and told him to leave her alone and she gets mad at me because she thinks I am partially to blame for this whole mess. I am afraid for her safety because he knows where she lives.

My entry for the All Hallows Eve Contest is a work in progress but it will be a story attached to my "That Summer I Found Her" Universe. The story is called "The Blood Red Tombstone" and it takes place during the month of All Hallows Eve in the same year Jessica, Kara, Lyndsey and Allysa get married. The story behind "The Blood Red Tombstone" will be told by Kara's grandmother and it will go back to 350 years previous before the Clans were forced to flee to America. It should be up very soon!

I went to my 20th High School Reunion last night and the reaction to me was very positive. The girls I spent time with in High School welcomed me with open arms. We had so much fun! There were eight of us girls out on the floor at one time and we just let loose! We danced four dances in a row before we sat down to rest. My friends were thrilled that I found happiness and that I was finally on the same side of the fence with them.

I am just curious whether anyone has heard from Tanya Allan lately. I haven't noticed her signed on here on BCTS or anything new at her website for a while. I hope she is doing okay?

I have been doing battle the last two days trying to get two of my meds refilled. I have had to deal with the nurse for my Endocrinologist. I have been so frustrated with her I could scream! She interrogated me up one side and down the other about why I needed the refills. I have dubbed her "Nurse Nightmare, because it is a real nightmare dealing with her . I told her that my prescriptions were expired. She kept arguing that I couldn't be out of refills. The doctor put five refills on there, but there is no way that I use five vials in a year.

Last week, my truck broke down just a few miles from home and I had to call a tow truck to come. I was out in the sun for three hours before the jerk showed up. After he tows me to the garage, he asks me for my Drivers license when I handed him a check. He then says "Are you aware that they made a mistake on your license? I played dumb and said I wasn't aware of that. He then say "Goodbye sir" I was seething mad. I will never ever allow my car to be towed by that prick or his company ever again if I can help it. He actually insulted me twice by charging me an outrageous amount as well.

Today(June 1st) is the sixth anniversary of my first shot of Estridiol Valerate and the 20th anniversary of my graduation from High School. I can't believe it has been that long. I can say that I feel truly blessed to be here living this moment now. It took me 33 years before I started, but I can honestly say, I wouldn't trade this journey for anything. I have wonderful friends here on BCTS and wonderful long time friends from High School that are still with me for this. I consider myself to be a very blessed woman indeed. Thanks for being there with me. Here's to many more wonderful years.

I started writing this story last night and my muse threatened to be uncooperative, but when I got into it, things just started flowing. I plan to add another part of it tonight because the ideas are flowing once again. I really don't know if anyone likes it, but I assume they do because at least 560 of you have read it. I plan on revealing some more surprises before I'm done so stay tuned!

I am considering posting my Autobiography to this site. I wrote it back in 2004 as a way to let my family know how and why I came to transition. I am hoping my story might inspire others who are just starting this journey. Would anyone like to read it? I came across it when I was going through some old papers yesterday and felt inspired to share it here on BCTS.