First of all. Thank you to everybody for the love and support, I love you all. So my appointment was today, and it was not what I expected.

She was an interesting person very frank. She first wanted to know about my family history. And even though my family life was not abusive, it was still full of things she said were bad. I agreed and she said "You were set up by this environment to not tell anyone anything, no wonder you kept it inside forever.".

She wanted to know when I first knew I was different and how it felt. She also said that "Jennifer has as much right to live as my male self does!". She kept me a half hour over my allotted time. I was her last appointment before lunch.

She did tell me that I have to tell my family just not yet. She said that I will have to some day when I am ready. I think that will be a while from now. She also wants to see my poems I told her they are very dark, but she still wants to see them. She made me sign an agreement to not harm myself which I did. I wouldn't do that anyway as I can't leave my family with nothing.

I have an appointment once a week for the next two months and then less frequent. I feel better but we both agree that I have a looooong way to go. When she walked me out to the lobby she said "I'm excited to be a part of this journey, I know you're terrified but I'm excited." I laughed a bit at that.

All in all a positive experience. I have no illusions about being fixed anytime soon. It does feel good to take a step forward and I hope to have more progress. Once again thank you all for the amazing support and friendship. Love and hugs, Jenn.