Wrestling Against Myself is a different kind of story for me, one that I openly share my theology in. It is no secret that Tony/Tiny is modeled after my high school male self minus the TG and weight issues. I had someone who got upset about me sharing my doctrine, especially the belief who goes to heaven and who goes to hell.

I know that this is a touchy issue for people and my intent was not to say that people who do not share my beliefs are going to hell. The comment I made was to address hypocrisy in the church, not to condemn people who are not of the Christian faith. I have been around Christian circles enough to know that there are many who condemn me for being trans. My old pastor told people to pray for me when she found out that I was trans and when I initially told her (years ago) she dismissed my being trans and tried to "pray the demon away." When I put in my story that "I thought everyone was going to hell unless they accepted Jesus in their heart," my intent was not to point the finger at those that aren't Christians, but to point the finger at those who say they are Christians and say to people who don't live up to their standards are going to hell.

It is a fine line to cross and I am sorry if I offended any one with what I said. In high school, I did have that cut and dry approach to life. My views have altered slightly since then. I will freely admit that I do not know who is or who is not going to heaven, and have said many times that there are going to be many so-called professing Christians on the outside looking in and wondering why there are Muslims and Jews and Buddhist and an assortment of others entering the pearly gates while they are not.

My statement about heaven was really a stab at Focus on the Family (who I listen to daily Monday through Friday at 5am). I cringe every time I hear them say "So called Transgender" and claim that I am living in sin. My statement was to say, stick to the doctrine you proclaim and don't add your own. According to my beliefs and fundamental Christian doctrine, we all live in sin daily, but I don't think being trans is one of my sins as they claim (my sins usual involve road rage and impatience if you must know).

My intent in the story is not to put down others for their beliefs, I am sorry if it came across that way. I know we sometimes avoid saying things so we don't offend and in hindsight I can see how that part of the story could offend someone. I sincerely apologize. My true intent were to address fundamental christians who want to judge people. I do not judge anyone for having a divergent view from mine and your relationship (or non-relationship) with God is your own business and I have nothing to do with it.

I thank you.