There has been OH, so much change in my life; mostly good ones, or at least something different. Oregon is once again pleasant, though I did not want to return. Memories of the past made it very unpleasant at first but since my arrival, some very pleasant people have come into my life.

Leaving Islam was like tearing surgical tape off a very sensitive area of my body, and after talking with a very close friend of mine who has moved to Jordan, my resolve is weakened. She says that she does not believe I can do it. I still do not know for sure. I wonder if my new religion will presure to me to abandon all the good things I learned?

Much to my absolute astonishment, I had breakfast with my Son last week after 6 1/2 years. I never expected that to happen. He being a retiree of the NAVY and a fundi, simply found my Islam to be too much. So, when I left, he felt better, though I am not sure I do.

There are some people I know who are not very fortunate at all, and I wonder how I can help them in a healthy way. Will I know how to prioritise? Will I listen to God? Will I remember to pray for those who need it? Have I truly learned to be unselfish and not self focused? I pray to God.

Much peace

Gwendolyn