So, I finally finished an application for subsidized housing on the south side of Edmonton for mom and me.
Being closer to Sharon and Sam would be a good thing, and maybe if my mom isn't here she wont have as much paranoia about my sister in law. (I know, unlikely, considering what dementia does, but I can hope)
Personally I have mixed feelings about leaving. I've felt safe here, which has been a rare thing for me, but the long drives are tough, and I think I can still be of some good to my mom by staying with her, or at least I hope so.
I'm actually surprised I was able to do it today, as depression has had me good all day, and Mr. Nasty is telling me just how much of a drain I am on the people who love me.
ah, well.
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Sorry
But rather than being a drain on your family, you're the one who has kept your family afloat. They all rely on you to some extent; some indeed more than others. In the midst of all the things you've been through and indeed continue to go through. you've provided stability to the lives of your family, dear heart. Love you!
Love, Andrea Lena
Seconded
I agree wholeheartedly. Too easily we look on our own contributions to our respective families and find ourselves wanting... thinking that others contribute more than we do.
As a stay-at-home mom and housewife, I often fall into this trap... seeing my co-wives work and bring money into the home while I only cook, clean, budget, etc.... effectively just spending their hard-earned money... making me feel like a drain on them. Then the other day my 1st co-wife told me that she felt useless... that she wasn't contributing enough to the family and wanted to do more at home, on top of having a full-time job... which just goes to show that everyone thinks they don't do enough and are a drain.
The fact is that each of us does our part... you included, Dorothy... to make our families work. Cut yourself some slack and look at all that you do for everyone. It's more than you think. (including just being you for them to love)
::huggles::
Roberta
Hi Dorothy, tell Mr nasty to
Hi Dorothy, tell Mr nasty to shut his gob for while and do what you feel is right. You only get one mum ( unless your were raised by a lesbian couple I guess ). Spend as much time with her as you can.
I've been lucky and only suffered with depression a few times. Being useful to your mum will help, but it will be hard. It will show other's what a worthwhile caring woman you are.
Good luck x
Leeanna