you ever feel something and not know you are feeling it?

I did today.

I went to group therapy, and as I talked about what was going on, with tears running down my face, the facilitator stopped me and said that I sounded angry.

Up until that moment, I didnt realize that was what I was feeling.

I was angry. Mostly at myself, for my poor decisions that have hurt me and those who care about me, but angry, nevertheless.

Then on my way home, I had a bit of a PTSD moment, just to add to my fun for the day ...

Ah, well.