Wearing my LBD, corset, appropriate padding and short bob style brunette wig, my biggest eyelashes and light makeup, dark red fingernails and my male mode slippers as my neighbours are complaining when I wear my heels... finishing off a bottle of nice Italian wine. Alone...
My "girlfriend" of the last 3+ years had not even bothered to try to meet me on her birthday several days ago, and last time I've seen her in person was somwhere in July...
My friend of the last 20+ years had not bothered to call me on my birthday... (And I hope he has no idea about my current attire...)
Story of my life :-)
I found quite recently that some of my classmates thought that I am gay. As in man to man bottom gay. While all of that time I was a "lipstic lesbian" and never had any interest in men :-)
Funny thing is that I am not in any way depressed. I have understanding friends (who even seen me in DRAG, and made their proposition for the femme name I am deliberating now).
I found out that sales girls in one of the big local department stores do not care who buys underwear and sleepwear from them (I understand that any increase of the bonus is very welcome now, but still the girl at the cashier desk looked at me, lokked at the sizes I've chosen, said that all of the sizes do match, implying that not only they match each other, but they should be OK for my "frame" (or bulk, depending on the continent you are from ;-) I'm struggling now to bring my weight back to under 100 kg and I am quite close...).
Good thing about loosing a girlfriend is that I will b3 able to do some electrolysis on my body before I hitch up with someone else...
Another thing is my dreams during the night. If I was able to record them every night I would have been richest screenplay writer in the Hollywood :-) Night before last I had a dream where I hitched up with preop transsexual to whom I said that even though I am lesbian I still love her and she should not be shy of me... Dream was so vivid and colourfull, that I am expecting to meet that girl very soon.
Another thing is... I've visited one office recently where two girls on the reception were probably trans. Very good voices albeit a little bit lower than your typical 20 year old girl. But hands just a bit too big, shoulders just a bit too wide, chins just a bit too prominent, makeup foundation just a bit too thick...
I kept my mouth shut and was just glad that those girls had foud quite a good place to work. Hope I had not spooked them by staring too hard.
So... Italian wine is finished and almost forgotten, one more working day before weekend, just about all of the news I had in the past couple of months :-)
So, have a good night, hope to hear from you soon ;-)
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Been there, done that...
on the weight issue. I started out at 269 lb. (122kg) Over about 18 months, I dropped to 220 lb. (99Kg) by simply cutting excess carbs from my diet. Things like crackers in my soup and sugar on my morning cereal and eliminating deserts. I discovered that it didn't take long until I didn't miss them at all.
Recently, my wife was diagnosed as being diabetic. We went to diabetes management classes. I went as her support person. Since then (February) I've adopted the diabetic "plate method" of controlling my portion size. That is: using a nine inch plate, half the plate should be taken up with vegetables and the remaining half split between carbs and protein. The protein being about the size of a deck of cards or the palm of your hand. The carbs roughly one cup full. Following advise in the diabetes literature I eat the vegies first.
It took about six weeks to kick in and make a difference, but I've been loosing about 1/2 lb. per week. I'm now down to 196 lb. (88 Kg.) as of last Sunday and still losing. The great thing is I find myself feeling full and not always finishing my protein and carbs.
I've become convinced that the key to successful weight loss is a lifestyle change and only feeding the body enough to maintain the weight you should be. I've tried diets (one had me at 1000 calories a day) and managed to put the weight back on and then add some for good measure. Since what I'm doing now isn't a diet that will cease when I reach goal weight, I feel confident that I'll keep the weight off.
Hugs
Patricia
Happiness is being all dressed up and HAVING some place to go.
Semper in femineo gerunt
Ich bin ein femininer Mann
keep your chin up
huggles