or is it fantasy?
I'm caught on a roller coaster of emotion atm, we seem to be going from peak to peak with pater this week, no sooner is one issue resolved than another rears its ugly head, As you might imagine, my, our, emotions are running along a very bouncy tightrope that has been close to breaking more than once this week. He's currently back in the hospital but information has been sparse so what that means, we've no idea.
I have managed to get in a couple of half decent rides, 100km down towards Weston SM on Thursday then 110km today on a Stroud/Cotswold loop variation. They really do help to maintain some level of sanity, whilst i can think about stuff there are enough distractions along the way to keep me from descending into what Churchill called a black dog.
On Tuesday i'm off to GOC, it's gonna be a difficult week that's for certain, if opportunity allows i'll pop in but that's subject to events beyond my control.
I'll be back soon, but for now,
Tschussie,
Madeline Anafrid
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Keep holding on Maddy
I've just been through pretty much exactly the same things that you are now.
My only advice, as an old Peak District climber, is to keep looking one step ahead, and for goodness sake don't look down.
Thinking of you
Lucy xx
"Lately it occurs to me..
what a long strange trip its been."
Talking openly is very helpfull
My father passed from cancer in 2013, after four of his siblings also died from cancer. One of my aunts said it first, and my father echoed the same sentiment: “Cancer is the best way die, because you have the opportunity to put your affairs in order and have a clear conscience.”
As I have mentioned before, as a family we talked and discussed very openly the whole process leading up to the end of his life as well as what was supposed to happen immediately and in the short and medium term. So when the time came, everything was set and there was no shock paralysis. (Unlike what happened when my daughter died during birth.)
The fact that you are sharing with us here is going to be beneficial to you. But even better would be if you could also talk about it with your immediate and extended family. Including your father himself and your siblings, then your children, nieces and nephews, then your grandchildren and your siblings grandchildren, finally your aunts and uncles and other relevant relatives.