To: [email protected]
From: Kat432578@ gmail.com
Re: Getting better!

Two weeks, Marisa! I’m feeling a lot better physically. I have almost no pain now, except when I move around too fast. I can go to the bathroom on my own now (yay!), and therapy is going a lot better. I still have a long way to go, but I think I can see the light at the end of the tunnel.

I caught one of the orderlies checking me out today. He was kind of a troll, but still, it’s nice to know I can still turn heads, even with no makeup. Tee hee! I’ll be leaving here next week, according to Doctor Whoever. I’ll never get his name. He told me to call him John. I can live with that.

He gave me a compliment today during my exam. He called me one of his greatest successes. Evidently, everything is looking pretty good down south. I should be bikini ready by the time you come over to visit. I have one for you and one for me, and you *are* wearing it, I don’t care how naked you feel!

You asked in your last message if Trent had called lately. I haven’t heard from him since the night of the fireworks. The problem is, I don’t think they were fireworks. The news said there had been an incident on the border. No details, except that a few people were killed in a village on the Myanmar side. I wonder if he was anywhere close to that. A guy like him shouldn’t be roaming around where he could get shot.

I’m a little concerned, but I made a vow to focus on getting better. I had to get used to getting up in the stirrups, but with my background, that wasn’t that big of a deal. Everything is proceeding nicely, and John said that I had no crystallization, which he said was skin that wouldn’t heal. He also said in about 6 weeks I would be pretty much healed, but to take it very easy with sex. Don’t worry about that, Doc! The thought of a man pounding away on me scares me to death right now.

I am seeing a therapist here twice a week. She was shocked when I told her my story, and amazed that I was still in one piece. I certainly don’t feel like that. I feel like I’m a cracked mirror, just waiting to shatter. I have a lot of issues right now, and she said fear of sex is one of those issues. I just hope it doesn’t last. I want to get over that, and have normal sex with a normal man. It will be nice for a change. Ha! Most girls are looking to spice up their sex lives. I’m looking to spice it down!

Just between us, I did something I shouldn’t have. I touched my new clitoris. Marisa, it felt good! I can’t believe that after all of the torture that poor thing went through, it can feel anything. The Doctor said a risk of the surgery would be nerve damage. I’m very thankful that it doesn’t seem to be the case with me.:)

I’m totally sorry if I’m coming across a some sort of self centered bitch. I don’t mean to. I just need to talk to someone. I promise I’ll get over it soon. Especially when you get here! Woohoo! I have your first class ticket already bought. When you get your passport, get on that plane the next day! We’ll have sooo much fun! I know you like to have a drink or two, and we will be good to go at the clubs. I still won’t touch the stuff, but I’ll have fun watching you make a complete ass of yourself!

Oh! Would you do something else for me? Make sure mom gets some flowers for her grave, ok? Tell her I’ll be there to visit as soon as I get back. Well, just think it, okay?
I’d like to think she is happy for me. Anyway, please do that, and I’ll be so grateful!

I’m going to try riding a stationary bike today, so wish me well! My little booty is sure to be sore after. And it’s still little! I took my measurements today, and I’m still 34-24-35. The girls are still a cute B! No big boobies for this chick, thank you. I still want to look good in a bikini! I don’t want to have to buy a new wardrobe. I brought what I needed, and I want to get a few more things here, but I’m saving the shopping trip for when I get back to San Diego.

I’m learning to play a game called Ma Jongg from one of the nurses. It’s fun, and helps pass the time. I suck at it, and I lose money every time I play. I’m also learning a little of the language. I’ll never be good at it, but its fun to try.

I think that the medicine is stating to take hold. I am feeling a lot better for no particular reason. I am grateful for that, but I don’t want my moods tied to a pill.

I am totally ready to get out of here, so check on that passport, girl. I don’t want to spend too much time with just my helper when I leave, okay? HURRY!!!

XOXO

Katrina