Chasing Hope
by Jenny Walker
Sarah Munro, a partner in a growing public relations firm, enjoys a quiet life in New Hampshire. Few know the lengths she's gone to in pursuit of her goals. Believing she's escaped her past, Sarah longs for the one thing that's eluded her, but a long-buried secret haunts her dreams of love.
Mark Hamilton, a little-known U.S. senator, believes America needs a change. His friends, recognizing that his strength of character and principled ethics are just what their country needs, have persuaded him to seek his party's nomination for president. Now they fear he won't be able to rise above inhibitions born out of past personal tragedy.
As their lives intersect and entwine in the heat of a national political campaign, Mark and Sarah reach out to each other. Mark wonders if Sarah is the one who might release him from his past hurts. Sarah faces the possibility that to realize her greatest hope, she may need to confront her deepest fear.
PROLOGUE
She was lost in another world until the cab driver spoke, telling her that they had arrived. As she stared through the window, she frowned and had difficulty recognizing her house. She blinked hard and nodded her thanks, stuffing a generous handful of bills into the driver's hand. As she exited the cab, the ice-cold fingers of the New Hampshire winter penetrated her woolen coat. She shivered and watched her breath cloud the air.
After the cab left, she stood for a moment. The street was mainly in darkness, permeated with the occasional pools cast by the sparsely-positioned street lights. The houses were dark and the thin layer of snow on the ground muffled the infrequent sounds of nearby passing traffic. She shook her head, as if trying to clear her thoughts, and slowly walked up the path to her two-story town house. She found her keys in her purse and opened the front door.
As it clicked closed behind her, the dam broke.
She swallowed hard to fight the rising tide, but it crashed over her in waves of emotion. She leaned back against the door and gulped mouthfuls of air between her sobs. The tears came faster, accompanied by convulsive spasms. Gradually she slid down the inside of the door until she came to rest on the floor, her legs straight out in front of her. The coolness of the tiles did nothing to dampen the fire that raged inside her chest.
Time lost all meaning as the never-ending flood of hopes and dreams emptied from deep within her. Her sobs became guttural retches that wracked her body. The moisture ran dry long before the well of hurt. Her throat felt raw and her eyes stung; her chest hurt and her legs were numb.
With an extreme effort of her will, she slowly stood up, holding onto the door to keep from slumping to the ground again. Shivering, she cast her gaze around. She felt like a stranger in her own home and idly wondered if anything would ever feel the same again.
Switching on a lamp, she forgot the cold. She grabbed the phone and dialed the familiar number without thinking.
"Hello?" a sleepy male voice answered.
"Jill," she said, her voice sounding husky and shaky.
"Hold on."
A moment later, a new voice spoke, "Yes?"
"Jill . . . I need . . . I can't. . . ." She bit her tongue as she tried to hold herself together.
Jill's voice was clearer, more alert sounding, "Hey, where are you? I thought you were —"
"I'm back home."
"It's two in the morning, what's happened?" Jill asked.
"I can't —" Her voice broke and the tears started again.
"I'll be right over," Jill said.
After knocking for a few minutes, Jill gave up and found the right key among the countless number she carried in her purse. When she entered the house, her eyes gradually adjusted to the dim light. Closing the door, she noticed a shadow huddled on one end of the couch.
"Damn, it's colder in here than outside," she said softly. She found the light switch and turned it on, banishing the darkness to the far corners of the room. She exhaled slowly when she saw the pitiful sight before her. Her friend sat stiffly on the couch, her green satin evening dress ripped at one side. Her knees were bent up to her face and she clutched them tightly. She hadn't looked up or even flinched at Jill's entrance.
Worried that she was catatonic, Jill rushed to her side and put a hand on her shoulder. "You're freezing! Oh honey, what on earth has happened?" Without waiting for a reply, she went to the fireplace, knelt down and switched on the gas fire. She grabbed a blanket from another chair and wrapped it around her friend.
"Hey," Jill said, sitting beside her and putting her arm around the woman's shoulders. "Talk to me, please."
For the first time, Jill's friend appeared to notice that she was there and her lip trembled. "Jill, I don't know. . . ."
"Did something terrible happen?"
Her friend nodded, then frowned and shook her head. "I don't know where to start," she said, looking Jill in the eye.
The tear-stained runs in her make-up contrasted against the pallor of her face; and the raw pain emanating from her friend's gaze scared Jill. "Just tell me everything, honey."
Reader comments:
"Jenny Walker simply gets better and better. Each of her novels has a different background, and this thoroughly researched saga is a masterpiece of romance and drama. If you aren't moved, sometimes to tears and sometimes to laugh out loud, then you have no soul. A truly great read!"
"Sarah Munro, beautiful and spirited, is a marvelous addition to Jenny Walker's gallery of heroines."
"'Chasing Hope' is the best political love story since 'Doctor Zhivago.' Sarah Munro has spent a lifetime trying to find acceptance. She has found peace by building a wall around herself that love is destined to knock down."
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A BIG problem with Chasing Hope
First, let me say that I've been a Jenny Walker fan since the first measure of No Half Measures. I had the honor of looking at most of the parts before the rest of the world did and I completely enjoyed each and every word.
Now Jenny has a new book out called Chasing Hope. It's available from Lulu.com (There's a link above) and at over 380 pages is quite long. There lies the problem. The story is so good that you're going to want to finish it all in one reading. Resist the temptation to do so and slow down when reading the book or PDF file. Get settled into a nice comfy chair, have some soda and chips available and take the time to savor every word.
If you get the book in PDF format please do be sure to adjust your monitor properly to reduce eye strain and possibly enlarge the text size on your screen for easy reading.
Like Jenny's other work, this is an excellent read and I hope that someone at one of the movie studios out there will discover it and turn it into a film.
Well done, Jenny!
Bob Arnold
Gosh! Had me worried!
Bob!
You had me worried! I saw this GLARING comment title and my heart nearly stopped - wondering if I had left half the chapters out or the like.
However, my heart rate has now come down to just below 200. Thanks so much. Praise from you is highly valued and I'm so glad you enjoyed it.
One of these days I'll write a "short story" - i.e. less than 200 pages! ;)
Jenny
Just get it!
Not much more to say really. I was priveleged to be a 'Beta' reader for Jenny and my main complaint is that it stopped me from getting anything else done. I'm not an expert on US election procedures, but I trust that Jenny is (at least now!) and she succeeds in making the background for this drama almost as fascinating as the drama itself.
I think this is even better than either NHM or Breaking Cover, so what are you waiting for?
Geoff
A Word of Caution
Geoff -
As you know I have written a non-TG novel that has many of the same themes as Jenny's story; including the politics.
I didn't see anything that was wrong with the final draft as far as the political procedure in the U.S. As I told Jenny, my screensaver is a red/blue map of the congressional districts -- depicting how the voted in '04.
I have to caution all readers to have a LARGE box of tissues handy. You will laugh and cry 'til the tears flow freely.
Angela Rasch (Jill M I)
Angela Rasch (Jill M I)
The Devil made me do it!
Sorry, Jenny, but I just had to do the review that way in the hope that more people would read it and take a look at your story. And I really meant it when I said that this deserves to be made into a movie.
Bob
It is a wonderful story and,
It is a wonderful story and, as usual, amazed at Jenny’s research! Congratulations again, Jen.