I won't encourage anyone to transition, because it is such a life changing decision that I do not want the faint of heart blaming me. The process often reduced me to such plaintive sobbing that I wondered if I would live through the process.

From the brief description of your circumstances, your situation is much different than mine was and perhaps your worst loss could posibly be the lack of visitation or the affections of your daughters. However, if such a change makes you happier and really changes your life for the better, then perhaps this new persona will work for you. That is your risk and you are the only one who can take it. No one can do it for you.

I have no connection with my family who I did and still do love with all my heart. Still, we do live through such things and I have begun to build a network of friends who seem able to cope with my oddities.

Mostly, the world does not care what you do, as long as you do not attract their attention. They are absorbed in their own issues. So, if you learn to do what a normal woman does, don't do gender Drama Queen, and don't act like a hooker, you'll perhaps be fine. Let's face it, a 5'2" natural woman has the moves; ones a T girl, even the best of us will never get down. When we try we just look grotesque.

So, I just do my best to be the most smiling, meekest, gentlest and most modest woman I can. The fact that I am Muslim makes it easier because once they get past the Hijab and other Muslim clothing, they forget to look for the T thing. None of that is an act though. It really is who I am.

Now, for me, Pants are completely anathema, and I only wear them when forced into it. While my mental age is about 17, I will never again have that body and therefore must content myself with what a normal Muggle woman would wear.

Best wishes on your journey.

Khadija