For all those who have gone before, when do the butterflies settle down?
For those of you that don’t know, that would be 99.99% of you, on February 1st I’m taking the plunge and jumping off the high dive. In plain English, that’s when I will be full-time as me.
I had a long talk with the HR manager where I work, for the last 21 years, and he isn’t going to be the problem I thought he would be. The subject was brought to his attention about a month ago. At that time he gave the impression that what I wanted didn’t matter, I was male and I’d be changing in the men’s locker room. Between then and now he’d done a complete 180. I have to give him credit; he did his own research on the subject, found the Human Rights Commission web site and educated himself. I was impressed. I also found out that he’s been on the phone with the HR managers at some of the other plants, (oh yea, I work for a company that has 19 cheese processing plants around the world, 14 in the USA) and I’m not unique. Well, I am, but I’m not the only employee that’s Transgendered. He said from now until Feb 1st isn’t much time to establish policy but he’d see what can be done.
I still have a lot of details to work out, and some I wish I could wave a magic wand and make disappear. I have one set of grandchildren that I’ll never see again. I’m waiting for the other shoe to drop and be barred from the other set. That’s in addition to the son that hasn’t spoken to me for 2 years.
So, for those who are waiting for the next installment of Matilda’s adventure, you can understand why it’s taking a little longer. But take hart, Hills 20 is almost ready for my dear friends to proof read. So it shouldn’t be too much longer.
Huggs & Giggles one and all
Penny
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Good Wishes
Best wishes for the future.
Don't forget you have another family at BC
Huggs
ELIZA
ELIZA
It's Never Easy
coming out. Losses can and do occur from revealations that we are not who they thought we were. Whether others accept you is truthfully, up to them to accept you. If they do not, it's their loss if they cut you out of their life. It's painful and doesn't hurt any less when they cut you out of their life. I had that happen to me when I fought to undo what had been done to me. So I do understand your pain I can see from you having written this.
If you want to talk, just PM me and ill pm my phone number. There are other members here who would also be a shoulder for you, should you need it to. But I'll be the first to offer mine.
Hugs (Glad you are taking the first brave step too!)
Sephrena Lynn Miller
BigCloset TopShelf
I don't know if the Butterflies ever DO stop,
but it's been really interesting to feel them turn into birds of paradise. Oh I'm not going to blow any smoke up...your old address...but once you accept yourself for who and what you truly are, it all becomes academic.
People will either accept and try to understand, or they won't, but you can not live your life, living up to what others expect from you. You HAVE to be true to yourself.
I have always said that this TS road is a lonely one, and is, at it's base, a very selfish thing, because in the end, it IS all about you!
Living a lie for however many years it takes before one breaks and surrenders (as it were) to their own needs, takes it's toll on every one of us who treads the transition road, some more than others.
All I can offer is my congratulations for gathering the courage to finally begin to be yourself.
We, your online family,will always be here for you. I'll only add this: YOU GO, GIRL!
huggles and love from,
Catherine Linda Michel
As a T-woman, I do have a Y chromosome... it's just in cursive, pink script.
Penny, take as long as you need to
You life and your transition are the most important thing you can do, we're way out there extended family that support you and love your writing and we'll be here when you come back.
I can assure you that there is life after transition and it is beautiful. At some point in the future you will wake up and realise you have had days where you had no awareness that you are a transgendered woman. Yes you will lose people in your life, even if they are your own flesh and blood, you have to ask your self if you were introduced to them in the stret today and learned what they stood for, would you want them as your friend? Probably not so take heart and move along without that negative baggage.
Its a transformation, time for a fresh change, we'll see you on the other side.
Good Luck
I am just now coming out ... and know what you are saying. In some ways I am lucky everyone in the extended family has heard me and is accepting of my changes (and those changes to come), with that said, my wife still has yet to understand so I have a feeling that is a road bump that will go BUMP.
I am joyful that you get to at last experience the wonders your birth body did not allow you to have. Keep up the spirit and always know every one of us are in your corner and cheering you forward.