Why do seemingly reasonable and logical people choose to worship a sadistic egotistical narcissistic psychopath as their g-d?

And by extension, I have to wonder why it is that so many of the people in the TG world somehow choose to cling to this ridiculous notion that the Abrahamic g-d Yahwe(and by extension Jesus) is something to be worshipped? When if you read his biography in the book called bible, only show that it is the most diabolical egotistical sadistic psychopathic being in all of fiction…

It honestly goes beyond my understanding that so many people on this planet can be so blind and uninformed about Christianity.

And then you might ask, who gives me the right to say something so blasphemous about any religion?
Well, no one needs to give me the right to say anything about anything else, NO ONE.

I have chosen to study, to delve deep into the history of religion and spirituality to find and amass a wealth of knowledge to make an educated choice to inform my understanding of mankind's ridiculous need to worship something external to itself. About 35years of study to be exact(I started needing the answer to the bigger questions in life when I was about 10 or 11).

And then you might ask what brought this rant on. I read a lot, sleep very little and I stumbled upon this story on another TG Fiction website called ‘TG Storytime’. The story is called ‘The Visitor’ by an author called School Belle http://www.tgstorytime.com/viewstory.php?sid=4605 . This author I do not see present on this website under that specific name.

Now, the story is in my estimation well written, very well researched Biblically yet for the life of me I cannot figure out what exactly the author’s intention is or was with this story…

The story is basically about a 15-year-old TG child(mtf) who escapes from an all-boys reformatory. Sent there by the father who at length tried to beat the TG out of the child, who ends up being found by an ultra-religious Christian family on their property close to death, after a 3day struggle with no food or water.

It is written in the first person mostly from the point of view of the mother of this family in diary style. A few chapters are written from the point of view of the child also diary style. The first thing this family then does is they start to pray about this ‘poor soul’ being led by the devil into a path of ‘darkness and self-destruction’. The child ends up in a prison, after being reported by the family to child services. However, being that she declared herself TG, she is put in a female jail, because as they put it ‘nobody was prepared to take a child such as that’. After a week or so there, she is severely beaten up and ends up in hospital. The family then decides to foster the child, only after the whole church that they belonged to pray at length about the issue and is given the go-ahead by child services to do so.

The sad thing is that from the outset the intentions of this family is basically spelled out, that is their calling in this situation to save her from herself and shine the ‘light’ of their psychopath g-d on her ‘darkness and depravity’… This lasts for about 2 weeks and then the story ends abruptly when child services reclaim her because according to them the family was not fit to foster her. Never does this family ever commit an act of physical abuse towards her, but the emotional battle rages all the time, especially between the child and the oldest daughter of the family.

To sum up, the story is about a Christian family who took it upon themselves to ‘pray away the gay’ for lack of a better description. And it was doomed from the outset.

You Christians out there would then probably say, but not all Christians are like that… Yes, it seems to me not all Christians seem to know what the bible demand of them.

And I will say, guess what, I experienced this first hand about 25 years ago when I was a then out of the closet TG person went and did bible school at the behest of my mother so that my ‘soul’ could be saved. The only thing I found in Christianity was a complete and utter overarching theme of hypocrisy. I mean, my ‘affliction’ was so visible, so in your face. It demanded the attention of everyone for prayer and deliverance from demons. But there were so many of those Christian cunts who behind closed doors were fucking other women than their wives, or abusing alcohol, or beating up on their children, and the fucking pastor himself was embezzling money from his own fucking church(this only came to light a few years later)…

In one of these ‘demon delivery’ sessions I snapped, almost strangled the motherfucker(who was an alcoholic and philanderer) who had his hands on me ‘praying’, I got up screamed at him to fuck off in front of the whole church and walked away from Christianity.

I then found the need to continue my study of all things religion and spirituality. Got all the books accompanying the bible… I mean Strongs Concordance, Vine’s Expository, 15 or so different translations of the bible. I found the Apocrypha, The Nag Hammadi Library, the Torah, the Talmud, The Zohar, Kabbalah and the Quran and everything I could find about Comparative Religion…

Well, in the end, Christopher Hitchens words rang most true – ‘The best cure for Christianity is studying the Bible properly’ – and I am now an atheist, happy in my choice on how I view the world.

I find it so sad to see such a marginalized group such as the TG community worldwide be abused by religion, yet cling to it as their way of salvation. I find this truly MIND BOGGLING.

Just to add I am MtF post-op who initially transitioned 27years ago age 19 and then got sidetracked by fucking Christianity that stole 4 years of my early adult years. I am now 46 and have been me for the past 23 years.

Ok, now I am rambling. Sorry if this way of asking this question upsets any of you, but I think it needs to be addressed.

Mantori.