The past several months/years have been Pure HELL.

First it starts out that I wind up with debilitating pain that kept me up for 66 hours strait. I finally broke down and went to the ER and had a lumbar spinal MRI, where they found out that I had somehow torn the annulus fiber of the disk between my L5 and S1 veterbrea and a benign tumor on my L3. I spent several months going to a pain clinic and doing Everything possible to relieve the pain I was in. I broke down and asked about the spinal cord stimulator to see if that would help. Nope, it caused 16 hours of PAIN, and left me with a worse case of parastesia ( unknown cause of numbness and tingling in random parts of the body) I have ever had. Well fast forward to July 8th of 2017... I wound up being the unlucky recipient of a rear end collision, because a kid wasn't paying attention to the bloody road. He collided with my stationary vehicle, shoving me through the intersection and causing my seatbelt to retract and lock in place (part of the airbag system). Luckily I had OnStar in my vehicle as my phone went airborne and wound up somewhere under my passenger seat. I wind up being transported to the ER by Ambulance to make sure I didn't screw up my spine worse. Thankfully I didn't do I was discharged a few hours later. It took 7 months to settle the claim for my vehicle that was totaled in the accident. Because it took so long my finance company wrote of the remainder of the loan making it look like a repossession so no I can't get another vehicle from a dealership anywhere. My only chance is to save up as much as possible to try and get a used vehicle that I hopefully can use for Uber/Lyft.

After about 2 years of this pain and shit, I finally get a Doctor that seems to care and he orders a complete spinal column MRI which has never been done beforehand. Low and behold yet another "unknown mass" is found on my T5. So he orders a MRI with contrast and a Bone Scan at the same time. It takes 3 weeks and a call to the Governor's office to get these approved by the insurance company. Now I have to wait until June 7th to find out if the mass is Cancerous and what it could be.

I'm afraid to see how this turns out as the symptoms are getting worse each week. There is NO WAY in FRACKING Hell of me tempting Fate by asking the one question nobody should ever say out loud.

With all this compounding manure happening my Muse has gone on Vacation and I have no clue when she will be back if ever. For the fans of any of my story "the Dream" I'm truly sorry for the long term delay.

Here's to hoping my muse returns and life can stop using a pitching machine to chuck high velocity citrus fruit at me.