After a prolonged period of severe depression I'm trying to get back to writing stories again. I began work on a new story a few weeks ago, and it's starting to look pretty good. Really struggling to stick with it. It's difficult to write in a vacuum and I've drifted so far from the few friends I ever had. I'm not even sure anyone would remember me or be glad to know I'm still around.
I really wish I had a good editor to rely on, just someone who could read this fragmentary thing and let me know if it's actually good or not. I'm pretty good with spelling and grammar and all that, I just need someone to help me see the forest for the trees sometimes. Also I tend to rely a bit too much on spoken dialog and neglect the inner thoughts and feelings of my characters. Some of that stuff can be brought out in dialog, but I really need to focus more on feelings if my writing is going to advance to a higher level.
I guess my biggest handicap is my failure to connect with other people. It's made life a million times more difficult than it ought to be. On the other hand I'm clueless on how to handle this problem. Just know it's crushing me and I wish I was past it.
I think I've become slightly less arrogant over the last few years but that's just a hypothesis that has yet to be truly tested in the field. It's easy to sit alone in my apartment and say I'm less arrogant, but not so easy when I'm out in the real world. Mostly I'm still scared and freaked out by other people, you're all so evil and loud and crazy, but on the other hand you're my sisters and brothers so I got to at least make an attempt.
If anyone's actually read all this blather, I thank you sincerely and please keep an eye out for the new story. The title will be Secret Identity, it's about a crime fighting hero whose identity is revealed, and his quest to find a better identity as a female.
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I look forward to the story
sounds like an interesting premise
Thank you :)
Thank you :)
I'd say more but I'm trying to avoid the trap where I end up writing all sorts of stuff *about* the story, instead of plain writing the story.
Been Missing You!
It's good to hear from you! :) It's been a long time and I'd been worried recently! I'm SUPER Happy to see you posting again!
-HuGgLeS-
-Piper/PiggilyTails/The Strange Little One
Huggles Piper ... been too
Huggles Piper ... been too long! I was thinking about that time we wandered around Coney Island with the girls. Fun times.
Please don't worry. I'm a very solitary sort, and tend to wander off.
Hey Giselle,
Seems that you're climbing in, but I'm sliding out. I've got a genetic depression, from my mom's family. I guess instead of normal form seratonin handling proteins, I make proteins that are ineffective, somehow, at getting decent levels where they're needed. But my problems are not about trans stuff (directly) or stories or discussions about either.
Your non-connecting with people might be because of depression, but it could also be related to Asperger's/ high functioning autism, like a learning disability for social interaction. I've got that, too.
Good luck, be critical of your shrinks if they don't seem to be helping you, try to find peace within and without.
Hugs and Bright Blessings,
Renee
Hi there. :) I'm not sure I
Hi there. :) I'm not sure I understand your first sentence. What do you mean by sliding out?
The techniques and practices that work for me would probably not work for most depressed people. It's a savage age we live in, only the true nutjobs thrive, the rest of us cope. I do pray for peace, and try to plant the seeds for it in my own little ways. I wish you blessings and excellent health, Renee.