My workproblems still aren't fixed after 4,5 years although I'm doing a 6 month internship at the HR division of another departement.
I've been borderline / heading to another depression for a few months now thanks to a few heavy hits to my self esteem and the fact that I don't see any solution for my workproblems and hence stand to loose everything as said before.
For the rest not mutch has changed over the year I was out. Still single and holding on as best as I can.
Lynne
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I am so sorry
that you are struggling and not finding acceptance. HP supports transgendered persons in the work place. If you are being subjected to a hostile work environment, please contact your HR division. If you feel this is not something you can do ... drop me a line ... I can help you a little.
I know the pit of depression. I am slowly, ever so slowly, working my way to a better place. There are so many questions I desire to ask, but will not do so in a public forum. I am here (for you) as a post op transgendered woman. For myself, therapy is a godsend. Without my therapist I would be lost. My meds doctor a blessing. He worked with me until I found an antidepressant that worked. One year ago, I was able to get off of my anti anxiety meds (yea me), so now ... it is just antidepressant, hormone therapy, ADHD, and a mild antidepressant med that does not work as it was suppose to, but the company discovered it relaxed people and let them fall asleep. Best for me ... it cannot be abused.
I understand the single ... it is lonely. I have hopes I will find someone someday, but I am not rushing into anything. Remember you date people who are mentally and emotionally at your level, those are the ones who are attracted to you. I want a healthy relationship -- ones with lots of cuddles, displays of appropriate affection, hot cocoa in the winter, and acceptance. I do not judge, so want someone who does not judge others also.
I know it is hard, and I am sorry. During my walk of life I decided we are here, not for ourselves, but to force others into working on themselves. I believe God made us this way for a purpose, and that WE are not at fault. We are teaching the world the true meaning of love and acceptance, and I believe we are the children of God. I certainly am ... I am stuck in my teenage years ... except I dress more age appropriate.
Wow, I am jumping all over the place. Remember it is okay to hurt, to feel lost, and be scared. I would suggest it is not okay to stop your journey. Each of us have so much to offer the world, it is the way we are. So, stay in touch please. Be strong, not rigid. Bend and be you. You are a wonderful person just for being you!
Kendra
Kendra Manderscheid
(One step at a time is working)
Forgot to mention the
Forgot to mention the background of my latest namechange ;). Haika is Japanese for wanderer written in Romanji.
Full nick I'm using right now is Sekai no haika ( I hope my japanese was good enough to make that translation). Wandering through the world, playing the game of life. A gamer till the day I die.
Kendra, I'm to muleheaded to stop wandering in this plane. Although I'm dreading some of the prices to pay to be able to do that.
And to end this post:
七重八重花は咲けども山吹の実の一つだになきぞ悲しき
Lynne
Errrrrrm??
Out of curiosity, what are those Japanese symbols meant to mean?
As Google turns it into:
"Nanae-double flowers Sad it'll without the OJ one of the real bright and Domo bloom"
hugs
Sammi
translation
Hi Samantha,
Romanji is "Nanae yae hana wa sakedomo, yamabuki no mi no hitotsu da ni naki zo, kanashiki.".
In english that would be something like "Flowers bloom sevenfold and eightfold, but the kerria laments, for not a single fruit does it bear." . Or similar ... :).
It's a translation that's more in line with the tought behind the text instead of a literall one.
It's an old japanaese poem I ran across a few years back.
Lynne
PS picked it up with the translation so I'm hoping it's accurate ... l(><)