I wanted to thank everyone who responded to the other blog. That's one thing so wonderful about this site is how supportive we are with one another. While other sites try to tear others down, we are building each other up.

I am in a little bit better mindset. Felix and I are brainstorming things we can do at home to help. I may do one of those kickstarter promotions in order to get the piece of exercise equipment I need (I find that I don't lose weight with just dieting and I don't live in a neighborhood where I can simply walk around without being accosted.)

I had counseling today. Started crying a little bit. We are working on my abandonment issues, to which I say I don't have an issue as much as an abandonment history. A child who gets lost in a store and thinks his mommy left him for good has issues, I have a life pattern of people up and leaving me. To which, I have to give a huge thanks to JOYCE "HALF-ELVEN" for not abandoning me the last decade, a lot of other people put me to the side for less.

I think I will do fine. I have a goal. I want to get married and it's no long a fictional premise. I don't want to be a fat bride and when we post the video on the site (I better get a 1000 kudos) I want to be at my most beautiful. I even have the dress picked out and I'm almost sure we're going to do a themed wedding. I have to ask JennC if I should do a macros city (robotech) thing or a Dr. Who. or, we can invite the whole site and do a come as your favorite non-nude character motif.

But thanks again. I am on my way. I just ate a pickle. I would tell you what I did to said pickle before eating it to get a rise out of my boyfriend, but I want to keep this blog PG.