I must apologise

Some of the time I can be prone to acts of sheer brilliance. Most of the time I prove myself to be adequate and the rest of the time I fuck up.

I have royally cocked up this time and I hope you will forgive me for having done so.

Now there are heaps of you you out there that love serials. Ang's Bike serial is getting to be more like The Archers than simply a long story and I'm sure there are others too.

Many however don't, as they don't like to end up waiting for months (or years) between episodes or worse, to discover that the story just fizzles out and doesn't end. Guilty point number one.

When I wrote Cruisin', I scoffed at the remarks about not liking serials as once the episodes are out there, they can't be changed and not releasing episodes unless the entire story is finished. I hadn't finished Cruisin', I just went from one episode to the next and managed to complete the story to many people's - and my own - satisfaction. One person even told me it was her favourite.

So there I was, thinking that I'd got this serialisation thing licked, that the aforementioned comments were unfounded.

I was wrong. Guilty point number two.

I wrote The Sight and left the ending so wide open and unsatisfactory for many, that I had to create Second Sight. About all I managed to do there was to open another huge can of worms. I answered the question of what happened to Darryl, but began several new threads that until about a week ago, had no way of either trimming off or sewing into the fabric of the rest of the story.

Couple that with the fact that the episodes were quite literally years apart and there is your recipe for disaster. Guilty point number three.

So anyway, since the accident last March, I have tried with all my heart to get some writing done and only managed one short story - Dawn Rising, which was met with a good response and buoyed me up, but nothing further came forth, even fifth. I recently picked up Second Sight again and figured I'd suffer the tellings off I was sure to get for leaving it so long, but found myself in that same position as everyone else - having to read the previous chapter again to figure out where I'd got to. Having written the damned thing, I thought I'd just be able to reread chapter three and away I went. It couldn't have been further from the truth.

So here's the bit where I fucked up.

I began reading through from the beginning of The Sight and couldn't resist poking about at it.

"You can't say that!" I said and began making changes. Now the word length of both The Sight and Second Sight together had reached 48K words - give or take, but as I said, I began poking around at it, making changes as I read through from one end to the other. Initially, this was simply to get another bunch of episodes written and hopefully finish the story once and for all, but that's just the tip of the iceberg.

So far, I'm nowhere near finishing. Sure I've written several more episodes - or had until I found a flaw and went back to the beginning of The Sight only to make more changes, some of which were fairly fundamental to the plot. I also made changes to the episode lengths, coupling episodes together, turning fourteen episodes into five chapters before hitting Second Sight equally brutally. Guilty point number four

Here's the crux of the matter and thank you for bearing with me through this stupifyingly boring monologue ... Both stories currently stand at 61K words, are nowhere near finished and what's worse, I won't be able to add what I've done now to the original stories. So many changes have been made to the original that I fear the new additions won't fit with old stuff. What I'm trying to say is that it's never going to happen. Sure I'll finish The Sight and Second Sight, but it ain't gonna get posted here - not unless I rip the old down and completely replace with the new. Guilty point number five.

So there you have it. Guilty on six points, which in my book is a royal fuck up. I must therefore apologise for trying to be clever and write a serial driven by the need for those comments and hit numbers. It really isn't the way it should be done as in many cases it won't work. It certainly didn't in my case.

Mea Culpa

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