I’ve noticed as I look back over the last two months, that I spent more time wearing girls clothes than I did my guy clothes. I would even go out to the store, wearing a pair of Samantha’s jeans and a turtleneck sweater.
I would just wake up and put on the jeans and sweater, not think twice and then go about my day. Somewhere along the line, I picked up a pair of dark brown Ugg boot knock offs from Wal-mart. Let me tell you, these are some of the warmest boots I’ve ever worn. This is a good thing to me, as the minute that my feet get cold, the rest of me goes with it, and I don’t warm up unless I soak my feet in a warm bath.
The boots and jeans have gotten worn daily, even when we had no power. I slipped a pair of leggings under the jeans and slipped my feet back in my boots, and I was toasty, even though the temperature dropped to 57.
Next week I go back to work. This means that I will have to leave Samantha at home (in a way) and return to wearing slacks and polos for my job. I probably won’t change when I get home, as I don’t really see the point in dirtying two outfits in one day unless absolutely necessary.
I guess that I am really wondering what this means. Once upon a time I was afraid to go out as Samantha during the day, and now I do it without a single thought... Perhaps I’m just becoming comfortable with my self as a whole. I know by now that Samantha isn’t going to go anywhere, and that she’s here to stay...
Samantha
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No way to tell of course.
You could just be merely that, a very practical person and am going green :).
You are comfortable enough as you are and don't need to change of clothes to confirm it.
Now the reason for the comfort will vary from among all of the Trans classes. For a crossdresser, I would venture it is a sign of maturity and you are comfortable with yourself or you really only have very occasional needs. If you are transgendered or transsexed usually you realize clothes does not really matter, but for a transgendered it is still needed for public conception; can't go nude. In my case, I've never cared what I wore at home either. While in early transition and not going full-time yet, I came home in my guy's clothes, took off my tie and that was about it, maybe changed into jeans but did not dive into the whole gotta put on makeup, hose, heels, underwear thing. I never wore any woman's underwear to work either and did not bother to change into woman's underwear, I mean, really, who's gonna see?
Finally when I finally transitioned, I went through being tg'ed and then ts and finally surgery over the course of a decade or so. During that first year post-transition, the only reason I would change when I got home was for the first year when I had to get out of my business suits and pantyhose and heels ( blessed relief that was! Still hate the pantyhose and heels stuff to this day. ) I lost my job, went back to school, and by the time I returned to the work force, the business suit as regular attire for my profession went the way of the dodo. To this day, I still come home in my casual or business casual and do not change till bedtime.
That is my story. You notice the pattern, hopefully: there isn't one. The clothing thing may or may not be an indication. Only you can tell that, so don't extrapolate where you are on the whole gender spectrum thing from mere clothing and you really can't ask a stranger who does not know you to help tell either.
Kim
Like Kimmie...
I wear what I feel like, although I do change from my work clothes simply because I have to wear a uniform of sorts, all of us do although I preferred wearing the dresses over the tunic and trousers we have to wear now. So it's nice to get my uniform off when I get home and finish with work for the night.
Living the dream I have the choice of wearing whatever I want in my time and that depends upon what I'm doing and how I'm feeling. Now I'm wearing jogging bottoms, sweatshirt and sheepskin clogs; yesterday, I was in makeup, skirt and heels.
The clothes are less important because I know who and what I am. It made me chuckle when having fought for the right to wear skirts to work like most of the women, they introduced a uniform with trousers for the women.
But then I transitioned twenty five years ago in July, so I can afford to relax and be myself. I hope you find your own level and your own comfort with yourself. Nobody can do it for you, and the examples of others shouldn't be taken too much to heart. There is no one solution, and even if there was never be in a hurry to close down your options. Too many people rush into what they think is right and then discover it wasn't what they thought it was. The more you commit to one course of action the harder it is to change your mind. I spent five years waiting for surgery, which miffed me at the time but at least meant I knew what I wanted. I'm legally female 24/7 which is what I wanted with a body to match(admittedly I'd have preferred the delux edition not the recycled one I got but I'm not complaining).
Enjoy what you can from your life, it isn't a rehearsal, but don't do anything you're unsure about without taking time to think about it and the appropriate professional advice.
Good luck.
Angharad
Angharad
It may mean nothing, or a great deal
being able to go out is great, as I am finding out. How much it means is really up to you. If you wanted to wear girl slacks at work, I am sure you could find something that would work, but it is your call.
"Treat everyone you meet as though they had a sign on them that said "Fragile, under construction"
dorothycolleen
There's no telling...
There's no telling - for sure...
In my case, it was pretty traumatic. Last year, I spent two months working from home... Then, I had to go on-site @ a client... It wasnt' just Slacks and a polo though - it was the full suit/tie and such... Driving to the client wasn't fun... When there, my "professionalism" got me through the day... But, the trip home was brutal. It got better over the course of the next two weeks, but I did find myself changing as soon as I got home and it was all I could do to keep from tossing the suit into a pile in the corner.
A year later, it's still no fun being the "guy"... And, it gradually gets harder as the months go by. (The week full time as Anne, last summer @ DisneyWorld made things MUCH harder - for me, but I think convinced my family how important things were... So, a mixed event.)
Where things will be for you? I don't know. You'll find out... Best of luck. I hope it's not painful for you.
Anne
I do have to say that I am
I do have to say that I am comfortable in just about anything I wear. One of the only things about some girls jeans that I don't like is the fact that when I am sitting, they will expose the top of my panties... I have no desires to become a female (that I'm aware of at the moment), I just enjoy playing one on TV. I'm actually trying to figure out what I will do during the summer as most of Samantha's clothes seem to be geared toward cooler weather...
I know this is a bit late!!
Samantha what do you mean by "I just enjoy playing one on TV"? Do you actualy
play a female role on TV? You do know the old statement about the difference
between a crossdresser and a transsexual "Time!!". lol I just saw you latest
post for "My Mistake" and since it had been a while I just reread the whole series!
I enjoyed it this way as I didn't have to wait for the next post until this
last one!! I am going to check out some of your other stories thanks!!
Pamela
No, I don't have a role on TV
No, I don't have a role on TV where I play a girl (that would be kind of cool though...)
I would recommend anything by me, (I may also be kinda biased...) Into the Land of the Pinks is the only thing that is completed right now. I think I know how Mistake is going to end, but its a matter of actually having the time to sit down and write it...
Samantha