It came and went, no big deal - like most birthdays after thirty. I've spent somewhere between one and two thousand hours writing it, over a period of about two years and ten months. Now I have to decide what I want to do with it.

There are loads of loose ends to tie up, which is just like a real person who dies, or like we all have everyday, so there are always plenty of plot lines to follow or I could end it where it is - if the latter, as it's written in the first person, there would be no more, the narrator is no more. I know I tried that before and popular demand resurrected her.

What is going on? Is Cathy victim of a hit or a simple accident which she may or may not have caused. Or is it more sinister, perhaps a contract hit?

Has Simon been kidnapped or is he doing the dirty and running off with a girlfriend, who has a particularly unpleasant side. If he's been kidnapped, by whom and why? And is the UN business over - especially as they claim in today's press that the threat to bio-diversity is greater than global warming. Could there be a better envoy for the planet than the pretty ecologist/film maker?

What will happen to the children? Will Trish complete her transtion when she's in her late teens? Will Julie have found happiness in a relationship, especially after her transition is complete, and will either of them be able to develop the healing with which Cathy is endowed?

Will Meems ever manage to speak pwopwee? What will Livvie make of her life? Poor old Puddin', if she does grow up inspite of Stella's neuroses, what will she be like?

Will Tom retire to grow vegetables and write his memoirs or snap back into the university to actively head the survey? If Cathy is dead, what would he do, life having slapped him twice with the same blow - would he survive it?

The boys were just coming to believe they had found a safe place to be, where they were loved and cared for, even if part of them couldn't believe their luck. What will become of them? Are they clever enought to go to uni? If Cathy is no more - what would they do? Run wild or become overcome by depression?

Finally, Stella, where does she go? She has a baby but that doesn't stop her doing dumb things occasionally, and is she up to the responsibiity of raising it by herself? Will she go barmy and end it all or triumph over her illness, raise all the others and keep things together for the whole family, helped by Tom and Henry?

You can see the choices I have to make, do I carry on and eventually get to the wedding blessing, or if Maureen is around, welded bliss? Or end it here and do something else - I have other serials to finish and only a certain amount of time. Mind you trying to post Snafu, somewhere else is very frustrating.

I shall have a think about how much more of my time I want to invest in Bike, if any and let you all know. (Oh no - another cliffhanger!)

Thanks to all those who've been involved with the technical side, including Erin and her team for allowing me to post it, Holly, Ben and PS for the archive, Gabi and Puddin' for occasional advice and all my readers who seem to have enjoyed it despite my efforts to stir them up.

Angharad.