I hate this

I have a wonderful girlfriend, but she's half a world away.

I just spent twenty minutes standing and crying in the living room in frustration at the pile of shit my life has become.

I really have no idea what to do now and it scares me.

The only reason I'm not still in the hospital is not having health insurance. If I had it, they would have kept me at least another week, but more if I had no one to help take care of me at home -- but I have neither insurance nor anyone to care for me.

I can't do anything for myself, and when I couldn't even get the bottle of my medicine open... I lost it. I just stood there and cried.

Today I have eaten half a bowl of beans, a couple slices of cheese and summer sausage, about 10 ritz crackers. It took me half an hour to get the cheese, crackers, and sausage this afternoon... and 45 minutes to get the beans heated tonight.

It just seems that the only people who care if I live or die are in no position to help me.

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