The sun rose lazily over the horizon, making the sky explode in a kaleidoscope of colors. Reds, oranges and pinks fought for dominance in the great pallet of blue. She stood feet firmly planted a long twisted dark road behind her and an uncertain lighted path in front of her. She remembered the words of one of her favorite authors since childhood.
“All that is gold does not glitter,
Not all those who wander are lost”
A quote she kept close to her heart all her life. She took a deep breath and took the first step. To a new life full of new choices, she would make some good decisions and probably some bad. But she would finally steer her life in the direction she wanted to go. First step down now on to the next…
Tomorrow I go to a doctor in Austin. A doctor that will help me become who I have always needed to be. I have some health issues that need resolving first. This doctor will handle them and my possible HRT. I am feeling scared, excited, apprehensive, and whole lot of other feelings. I have dreamed of this for a long time and now it will be a reality. I know it might not turn out as I expected, but I will be making progress.
I have to thank all of you here who pm’d me and commented on my stories and poems. You have been my support and my family for so long. Now with my lovely wife by my side we are going on a new path. I will keep you posted as things happen, if you want to hear about them.
For now good night all, love Jenn.
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Lovely
and you know the gang will be behind you to catch you if you stumble, Twin.
Love n Hugs,
Diana
Ah yes....
...for your journey....
It's a dangerous business, Frodo, going out your door. You step onto the road, and if you don't keep your feet, there's no knowing where you might be swept off to.
Love, Andrea Lena
All good wishes
to both of you, it's a pretty big step on a long road.
Angharad
Giggle
"Pallet" of blue, indeed. So much color you needed a fork-lift to move it...
I'm in the UK. We see skies like that maybe ten days a year. Perhaps you meant palette.
It takes a hell of a lot of courage to take that first step and you've finally done it. It was years before I could even face my partner and even more years before I could tell my doctor. I have to warn you to be patient since the professionals sometimes move slowly to make sure that you are doing the right thing, and then there are those who don't want you to be doing the right thing for their own reasons. Hang in there.
You've begun a journey. Some times the journey is as important as the destination. Congratulations on taking the first step.
Penny
Dammit
Spall chack. Argh!
Upon my liar's chair
Full of broken thoughts
I cannot repair
For what it is worth,
you are through the hardest part. There will be moments where you will doubt your choices, but in the end you will be a much happier person. Maybe we can talk sometime.
I'm so proud of you...
And I'm so happy for you. I pray that some day I will be free to follow in your footsteps but for now: Obligations. I took them on myself and now must honor them.
Jacob Marley: Ah! You do not know the weight and length of strong chain you bear yourself! ... Ah, it is a ponderous chain!
Ole
We are each exactly as God made us. God does not make mistakes!
Gender rights are the new civil rights!
A long but wonderful road ahead of you......
Having made the same decision myself some ten months ago, I would guess that in some ways I am slightly ahead of you - but in others perhaps behind. Because of some personal issues, I have had a particularly tough road to travel recently, but I am moving beyond that. Besides, enough about me.
I wish you all the best on your journey! Please don't hesitate to reach out to me if you need someone to talk to. I'm not sure if my experiences will relate as I am sure that each and everyone of us struggles with our own personal demons, but I am a good listener - and I love to talk girlfriend!
One thing I will leave you with is that I am reveling in experiencing and feeling things like I have never felt them before. Even when something happens to upset me, I feel it so much more strongly and deeper than ever before - just because I am free to be me! I hope that you find that experience as exhilirating as I do!
Good luck, and remember that you are not alone. Wow - sounds like a creepy science fiction story, huh? Lol.
Dallas
D. Eden
Dum Vivimus, Vivamus
Good luck
I hope all your dreams come true. I will think positive thought for you.
Courage is resistance to fear, mastery of fear - not absence of fear.
Mark Twain.
Leigh Veritas
Update. Copied from my FB.
I have been remiss in posting the results of my doctors visit.
Doctor was fine with the letter my therapist sent and was ok with my starting hormones. But my blood sugar was to high to start that day. She prescribed insulin, antidepressants, and a blood pressure med as a preventative. I see her again in three weeks, and if I've brought my sugar down enough I will start HRT.
I never thought I would get to this point in my life. I have all of my loving friends and family here on Bookface an BCTS to thank for support. And of course my wonderful wife Kathryn who gives me strength and love every day.
Upon my liar's chair
Full of broken thoughts
I cannot repair