...your writing can function as a 'pick-me up' for you? I know when I'm down, writing seems to pull me out of the dolrums, and I know your work helps me in that regard as well. Losing something isn't stupid. Considering the stress you've been under lately, you should really give yourself a break. Feeling disappointed is understandable; don't pile needless self-recrimination on yourself. Dorothy is getting out and about, even if it's here and there on the net; pleaseing and entertaining and encouraging. Hang onto that while you continue to search, okay. Much love!