which means food in dutch.

It been a while since I was able to cook for people which i been doing of and on again for groups (starting at min 10) since I was 15yo. Miss making dinners and stressing about it. If I'm alone I would care less what I'm eating as long as it's palable. Lolz I even like A and C rat's.

One of the few ways I can try to take care of the people I care about. Even if it means that have a moutain of dishes to do afterwards (hate that part). And althouhg I'm no chef I can manage quite well (cfr my little sisters asking me why I never went the Hotel school -> branch that trains cooks, someliers and so on in secundary school). Easy it wouldn't be destressing anymore if you know what I mean, it would be a 'job'.

The other part of it is that it,weil during the actual cooking i'm stressing to get everything right, it actually destresses me. Need that a lot right now.

Brings me on my main problem of the moment. It's been more then a month since the last meeting about my jobsituation with peopele for HRM or appointed by them. And I'm starting to realy wonder if I'm going to be back at work before the end of summer. Being on sickleave for 15 months now and it's really starting to get old. Not mentioning to fact to my biological clok is by now used to got to bed around 1 o'clock at night and get up between 10 and 12. Especially 'cause I'll need to get used to getting up at between 5 and 5h30 to get out the door by 7. It's going to hurt the first few weeks when it comes (I'm still hoping on a 'when' instead of and 'if' at this time although I'm loosing faith in it -> 32, okay almost 33, and already looking at retirement and the pension I would get isn't that great with me only having worked 12 years). Don't trust the PTB's at work anymore

Lynne