Well, The above is a statement I never thought I would say again. I met somebody on a chat room, and she helped me get through the worst of my flashbacks. She knows my gender status, and it doesnt faze her a bit. She is also constantly complimenting me, calling me beautiful, and making me feel special and wanted in a way I have never felt before. I am being careful, trying to take my time and get to know her better, but also trying to enjoy the moment at the same time. We will have to see how it goes.